My Spouse, A Stranger

When you know you're at the end...

*Note: This Poem I wrote a long time ago (2002), but have never shared it. I felt it time to pull it out, as I know it is good to occasionally look back to see just how far one has journeyed from...
~L





My Spouse, A Stranger
By: Lorraine Pearson
2002

I'm alone in this place
Some sunlight's on my face
Still I'm yearning for some love
And warmth and pleasure

Too trapped within a cage
Entangled by this rage
From loveless heartless moments
My spouse, a stranger

Still it's my life…and what I am living
Wearily my heavy soul just keeps giving in…

Lonely in this desert
And solo beats my heart
Crying won't stop blinding me;
Here, tears get wetter.

An oh familiar scene
Played out on movie screens
It's circling- not learning
Nothing gets better

Still it's my life…and what I am living
Wearily my heavy soul just keeps giving in…

It's a fight to stay alive
And it seems like
Bit by bit
I stop believing

© Lorraine Pearson 2008

Author's Note

feel free to comment on grammer, structure, etc. I welcome anything!
~L

Reviews

[Juanita]

I can relate to this poem so much. You are right, sometimes it is good to look back & see how far you've journeyed from. I did not see any error or typos. I think it was well written and very meaningful. This is something other women can read & relate to easily. I'm happy that you've moved past it. Thanks for sharing!

[Bruce Bray]

first and foremost, the fact that you have the trees by rush on your playlist says volumes..
you are the only person i have EVER met that has that..
long live HEMISPHERES!!!

now, i love this piece..
there is so much courage in the truth that is mentioned here..
in the beginning the reference to sunlight, yet barren from warmth..
being inside of the cage and angry..
the question that you ask yourself, since it is your life..
the reference to the desert is a great metaphor..
the vicious cycle that you're in..
and the finale.. not believeing in love or yourself any more..

wow.. really like it!

[The Rock And Roll Cowbo..]

It's sad when to lovers somehow drift apart and still live in the company of that stranger in fear of being alone(which really they are now) or maybe fear of change among other reasons... I think many time people believe marriage is a fairy tale life then when they find out it's not the wall builds around them... I like the lonely feeling you present as someone deals with there mistake by pretending all is ok.

[Patient Poet (Yos)]

Thanks for sharing this poem, Poetry is a mirror to our soul, you looked in that mirror and reflect it to me
Yos

[Barbara Walker]

Your words convey the sadness and a bit of lethargy. It's so difficult to remain in a relationshipthat isn't going anywhere. Lessons learned, moving on, figuring out what comes next or maybe just letting life flow and see what comes to you? Good write! Barbara

[OceanTropic]

I'm sorry you felt that way, but I can relate. It's so painful to be the only one in a relationship, and to be so vulnerable to this person that you give in with that bit of false hope we all hold on to. I didn't catch any grammatical errors myself. I thought it was well written.

[AK]

The possibility that virtually the same feelings can transcend the genders as a marriage whithers and dies is remarkable to me. I guess I never really thought about it that much. I just assumed that men have one perspective and the ladies have another. But in this piece I see that maybe you girls experience some of the same basic agonies the guys do. Who new?
Many of us have our own "ex" memories that we look back on every now and then. I'm so thankful those days are behinds us now, no matter how painful the escape.
Thank you for sharing this incredible piece!