SSDD

SSDD

A Poem by Mary
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Poem about abuse, about being abused, yet not ready to leave. Poem about Limbo in abusive relationships

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The roses arrive at precisely 2pm;
twelve long stems, red, boxed, and properly ribboned.
Tossing the note into the trash, I chant,
mocking in true Benedictine fashion,
“Friend, lover, my soul mate, my Agnes …
forgive me! A-men.”

I marvel that my lyric has moved me to tears.
Now, to text:
“Forgiven, forgotten, love is eternal,” hit, "Send!"
 
I-Should-Have-Lied!
 
I coulda, woulda, shoulda,
but didn’t deny the accusation;
and, so, we begin again:
Hand in hand, spin me round, dosey doe
dosey doe, down I go, with a kick and a blow …
learn my lesson, learn it good,
lifeblood running thin and cold,
sanguine portrait understood,
lest I ever be so bold, again!
 
"I-Should-Have-Lied!"
 
Bleeding and battered in body and broken in spirit,
I place my hand in his unforgiving one and rise.
I am chastised and properly corrected;
I embrace my absolution.
Later, I will submit to my penance.

Tomorrow, perhaps, there will be daisies?
 
"I-Should-Have-Lied!"



*(same stuff, different day)

 


© 2017 Mary



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I think you speak for many in your sad poem. The trouble I, as you so succinctly point out in your poem, he does it because he thinks she need sto be punished, and she thinks she has to be chastised. I wonder if changing a person's mind-set would help. probably not. Your poem says it very well.

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Mary

1 Month Ago

Thank you for your kind review. Yes I agree, it's a very sad poem; so much of this kind of life is .. read more
Great Aunt Astri

1 Month Ago

I am not as pessimistic as that. I think people can change their way of thinking and doing things. T.. read more



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Your words are more than right, more than forceful and should be read, digested and acted upon. You've turned poetry into justice, if only poets had the right to stimulate education within schools, colleges from say, early teens - and visually.

Throughout our so-called civilised world, abuse within the home is rife yet ignored, or accepted. Bullies live on power; they feed on it. But, the abused are trampled into dust.. rarely able to escape because they've lost the will to be anything more than punch bags standing or hanging misshapen, psychologically and physically.

It takes extreme courage to walk away from abuse because by the time it's become a way of life, the would.be walker has near forgotten how to think and do anything constructive. A dirty rag has more life in its mesh.

Women - men too, should act as soon as they are aware of manipulation. Mental shackles and beatings have absolutely nothing to do with love.. they are 'weapons of destruction'

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I've seen too may victims of violence
from ages 2 to 72...
Women should leave
but they chose to stay
because they have low self esteem..
and feel they have no where to go.
Now days women DO have a place to go !

Thanks for bringing this subject
into the light..

Jazzy

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Mary

1 Month Ago

Thank you Jazzy, for your kind review. You are right, women should leave or better yet never enter .. read more
J. J.  Nightingale

1 Month Ago

You are welcome Mary.....................J.J.
Dear Mary. Powerful,true and honest words shared.
"Tomorrow, perhaps, there will be daisies?
"I-Should-Have-Lied!"
I known many woman who lived on hope and a lie. Thank you for sharing the realistic and amazing words and thoughts.
Coyote

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1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Mary

1 Month Ago

Thank you so much for your kind review. The life of an abuser and abused exists in a long state of .. read more
Coyote Poetry

1 Month Ago

Always my pleasure to read your work and you are welcome.
I think you speak for many in your sad poem. The trouble I, as you so succinctly point out in your poem, he does it because he thinks she need sto be punished, and she thinks she has to be chastised. I wonder if changing a person's mind-set would help. probably not. Your poem says it very well.

Posted 1 Month Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Mary

1 Month Ago

Thank you for your kind review. Yes I agree, it's a very sad poem; so much of this kind of life is .. read more
Great Aunt Astri

1 Month Ago

I am not as pessimistic as that. I think people can change their way of thinking and doing things. T.. read more
Love and abuse- for some It's two lethal sides of the same coin. You depict the cycle so well in the movement of this excellent poem. Victims are kept dangling off-balance, hoping for relief, but the violence never stops- until death or help is provided. Thank you for this important poetic statement.

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1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Mary

1 Month Ago

Thank you for your kind review, Annette. So many dysfunctional destructive relationships remain in .. read more
Unfortunately abusers rarely have a come to jesus and heal the area that is broken in them that causes them to lash out onto others. Abuse in any form is inexcusable and yet so many of us have such big hearts we believe in the ones casting out the harm.. We hope we can help them heal.. and we can't.. they need to heal themselves.. You write very strong poetry and I appreciate you sharing..xo

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Mary

1 Month Ago

Thank you so much, Tracey, for your kind review. As Richard wrote in his review, Abuse requires som.. read more
"Same stuff, different day," and it really is never going to end, because he is sick and will never be cured as long as anyone tolerates it.
There's an old saw, Mary Dear, "We teach what we tolerate." And, they whom allow such actions to go unchallenged and uncorrected, are as much a part of this harmful dysfunction as the perpetrator, because without a consenting victim, it could not be.
Still, it is not always that easy to simply walk away or report an abuser … the victim is, all too often, controlled by fear and/or conditioning.
Mary, this is a well-struck and deeply moving piece, that touches me on a personal and tragic level, as one of my best friends shot and killed her husband after she'd tolerated his physical, emotional, and mental abuse for years. She was convicted of 2nd degree murder and sentenced to fifteen years.
I tried many times to get her to leave and report him … now, her children have no mother or father to raise them. I even beat him senseless for doing it to her, but he retaliated it back onto her with increased brutality, and I reported him, but as her children's father and their only means of support, she'd not press charges. I thought of killing him, and sometime regret not doing so, but am glad I didn't, as he got into a bar fight and was stabbed to death … I guess justice was served, after all, in a very sad way for everyone.
A sad event far too widespread and tolerated by far too many women … and, men.
As to your punctuation you asked to be checked, I'll address with you in messaging.

Mary, I hope this is not autobiographical … hugs to you! ⁓ Richard

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Mary

1 Month Ago

Thank you so much for your very insightful review(and also for some most excellent editorial assista.. read more
Richard

1 Month Ago

I could be no more thrilled to read you and help in any way, Mary … hugs to you! : )
yes, daisies....but she doesn't really see it coming...and she is too busy blaming herself for his behavior...this is such a telling write...i feel abuse like this is worse than actual murder, because it murders both the heart and the soul.

j.

Posted 2 Months Ago


Mary

2 Months Ago

Thank you. Yes she is caught up in a cruel and deadly cycle, and we both know how these stories end

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