doubt and terror

Sometimes
I feel like peeling my skin off
To be sure there's only
Flesh
Blood
And bone inside
So I can reconcile
With my suicidal side
We've been in places
In dark places
We had no space
To doubt or restart
But sometimes
I feel like I need
To go far enough
To be strong enough
To cross the border
And bring him something terrifying
To prove him something horrifying
I terrorize the insides of my mind
In order to collide the opposites
And have them behave in constant fear
Of mutual destruction and despair
But still, sometimes
I feel like peeling my skin off
To be sure
There's nothing terrifying
Residing on the inside

Reviews

[Jason Kozlowski]

To me this poem is a deep, from the heart, message that is truly haunting! Especially the first 6 lines...
It's DEEP! Easily my favorite poem I read today! I tend to love the emotional, dark side of poetry as it greatly appeals to me! Very clear, precise words that not only fit the mood but convey the message in a very understandable and meaningful way. It's like it was written from your heart as I said before. I FEEL the poem as I read it and I hope that you don't tear yourself!!! With this work, I can see you actually HELPING people who feel this way. It's not only clear in itself what it means but it's also in itself telling people who feel this way that they aren't alone! Also inspiring to people who feel this way and haven't been introduced to poetry yet! You could gain some new writers for the world of poetry!!! Excellent writing, excellent first 6 lines to grab my attention and WHAM, I'm finished reading with a feeling of satisfaction! Excellent! 100/100 without a doubt.

[J3ssInJupit3r]

OH my goosh! This poem seriously speaks what I have thought to myself before. I have always wondered if maybe there is some kind of dark matter just eating away at my insides and I never knew it becuase well obviously, you can't see your insides! But this poem connects with me so much. I have been suicidal before, since I have been put on mood stabilizors, I haven't felt as impulsive as before, so the suicidal side has gone away. And I just noticed too, in your other poem that I read you had put "suicidal side" as well, are you referring to like another entity inside you that just like takes control sometimes? Or is it just your mind frame that gets wacky and wants to hurt yourself? Just curious. Anyway, I loved this poem. It was wonderful. Thank you for sharing.