Welcome To My World Of Depression

just one of those depressed days

Many times I was told you were cheating on me,
but I never wanted to believe that you would do this to me.
Mama told me that someday I would discover that
everyone was telling me the truth,
that you were the one deceiving me .

Now I find myself sitting here trying to figure out
why you did this to me.
You tell me you were lonely and that I never told you I loved you.
You never gave this a chance. I know I wasn't perfect
but I was always there when you came home from work.

Now my depression has sat in for the long haul.
So why don't I just walk away?
It is because my children want me to stay.
They say, ' Mommy please don't leave daddy'.
They don't know the hurt I feel inside

because they want to believe that you did no wrong.
So welcome to my world of depression, won't you come to join me?
Many times I was told you were cheating on me
but I never wanted to believe that you would do this to me.
Mama told me that someday I would discover that
everyone was telling me the truth,
that you were the one deceiving me .

Many times I sit here and think this is just a dream.
I will wake up soon and everything will be ok.
The reality of it all is; this is not a dream.
All this really did happen and now the hurt and pain
won't go away, no matter how hard I try to make it.

I sit and try to work through all of this,
trying to see if there is a way to salvage
what we had together before you chose to cheat
on me and shatter our world that was made of glass.
Or at least I thought it was, the day I discovered your
nasty secret of lies and deception.
That day my world shattered into a million pieces.

You come to me now saying, 'Baby just give me one
more chance. I promise you I will never hurt you again'.
But I can't give you that second chance
because you have hurt me so deep
and you will never know how much I hurt inside.
You were not the one who was sitting at home with the children.

While you were out doing your thing with my 'so called' best friend,'
boy what a mess.
Everything was fine and dandy till I discovered your little secret.
Now that I know the truth my heart wants nothing to do with you,

nor does my soul.
You have shattered my world in a way that can never be put back.
The trust I had in you is broken.

So welcome, my 'so called' darling, to my world of depression.
I hope you enjoy the misery you have caused
through you wanting another.
I pray that in time my heart will heal
and that I will discover that someone out there
is capable of loving me, and will be true to me.

So join me sweetheart, into my world of depression.
Discover how lonely, and alone it can be.
In time my heart will heal, but my soul will still bleed,
for the truth that I have found out will always be in my mind
and the fact that you didn't love me enough to say ' No'.
Welcome to my world of depression.
By MELISSIA ANN SENTER

Reviews

[gaurishankar]

"You were not the one who was sitting at home with the children. " so true. no woman can welcome the man who changes his mind tosome other woman . She wants a protecting dad to her children and not a man who tutors them bad about her! I see clearly the torture undergone by a loving heart! Nice write dear Ann.