Permanent disguise

Song I came up with a few minutes ago while mindlessly humming random tunes while washing my hands in the bathroom lol :p thought I'd make a poem, but it's really more meant to be sang.

There was a time, not long ago, I was fine, now I'm broke
I draw the curtains, just to see a sky of storms and misery
My life has been shattered, my mind has gone numb
it's impossible to remember an uncovered sun
A world of chaos, so I had to forget this heartache
So I stopped being myself and began a whole new brain
Will you look at me now, this is all you will see
Emotionless eyes, dead to the core, I never heal so I never feel
Sorrows drowned and locked away, something is missing
cuts are forgotten and left to infect me
Can you hear it, the descending madness?
A doom so dreary, never enough to change me
Living a life in a permanent disguise
frostbites from the freezing rain that my soul pours
in this atmosphere it's impossible to breath
Clutching my logic, ignoring the pleading from inside
Going through life in another brain that forsakes my pain
An electric silence pierces the words that I never speak
Had to get away from me, the person the world wouldn't let me be
Just because it wasn't strong enough to please it
Why does there have to be an answer to every question?
Because my decisions no longer rely on sense
It's all the conclusion of a different me, the one who is a stranger
It keeps me alive but it doesn't live a true life
That's because I now keep on a permanent disguise