I Do Not Like Me

I Do Not Like Me

 

I do not like me

I do not like

I do not

I do

I

 

I don’t like me

I do not like myself at all

I feel so very dirty

Insignificant and small

 

I do not like me

Not one tiny little bit

The way I look, the way I feel

The way my mind is split

 

I don’t like me

I do not like myself at all

The way I taste, the way I sound

The way my face don’t fit

 

I don’t like me

I do not like myself at all

I feel so very awkward

Uncomfortable and clumsy

 

I do not like me

I do not like myself at all

All your insults and the loathing

I feel such a stupid fool

 

I do not like me

I do not like myself at all

The way you shape and mould me

The abuse and way you broke me

 

I do not like me

I do not like

I do not

I do

I  

Reviews

[emmajoy]

This is a very fine display of self displeasure" Strange to use such strong font, as if chastising self publicly as a sort of penance or self-flagellation. You use language so brilliantly, always have and will.. but i find this so sad.. whether true or not.. the fact such thoughts come from an obviously caring and intelligent man.

I've yet to meet a saint who can write as you do or a saint who knows how to be kind when reviewing others' offerings. So, am sorry, but, i dismiss the core of your poem.. incredibly well written and displayed though it is. So there, Neville!

[Neville]

Cor blimey, make me blush why dont'cha? You are far too generous emmajoy, but dont let me stop ya. Much appreciated. This one is entirely fictional, so sorry folks......Neville

[49k_jdys]

Oh I know the feeling well. The way you express it is darkly beautiful. I love how vulnerable this piece is. Excellent job!

[Neville]

Thank you again my friend, you are far too kind........Neville

[J]

okay. whoever yer hangin out with needs to hit the bricks, love. No living human being should suffer this sort of judgment, condemnation. THEY should feel so ashamed, not.you. *run away run away*!

[Neville]

Ah' but when one is unable to run anymore, a bucket full of contingencies does occasionally come in handy. Thank you j.....And All Good Things to You, N

[Nigel Newman]

Neville Hi. Purely from a poetical writing point of view I really like the repeated shortening phrase that ends with 'I' and the repeat of lines 1 & 2 in every verse. They sort of set the platform for some illustrations of why 'you' feel this way.

From an emotional point of view, I found it sad. Understandable definitely, but sad. I think I most disliked myself as a teenager and into my early 20s, but these days I sort of think - hey, there isn't a single person out there who is 100% likeable and we can pick holes in anyone. Most politicians. Greedy business people. Criminals. Cynics. Half-empty rather than half-full people. Gloaters and boasters.

But the one that gets most people is none of these - it's that sense that I could be more, do more, give more. And I think many of us will for ever feel this. But at the same time, we should try not to dislike ourselves. Try to improve - yes. But not denigrate ourselves for, well, being pretty normal. One thing that helps, I find, is to shift one's attention away from 'me' and towards friends, colleagues etc, taking interest, offering help, etc. There's usually some reciprocation, and things start to feel more balanced.

Well written!
Nigel

[Mrudula Rani]

❤️ I agree with Nigel's affectionate advice.

[Matthew Kult]

Depressively created

Great read

Matthew

[Neville]

Thank you Matthew, I am most grateful for the visit, Neville

[Matthew Kult]

You are welcome

Matthew

[R J Askew]

Great write. Sums it up for so many. Blips of life we are passing through.

[Neville]

Thank you my friend, your visit is most welcome and much appreciated. All Good Things, Neville

[Saumya]

This is very relatable, we do dislike ourselves sometimes, but then this feeling of disgust should not remain long.

Hating oneself sometimes is OK, but hating because the other person concluded us to be bad, is wrong! They obviously don't know the real us, better than we ourselves. They only know the side of us, we let them..People and judgemental, they'll often judge you wrong, but then that dose'nt give you the opportunity to hate yourself.If you'll not be proud of what you are, and see your worth, remember, others hardly will!

Love Yourself instead, and make yourself believe that you're good the way you are.there are many out there to hate you for everything, let them but know, their judgement babiutvyou can't all be right.Nobody is perfect, nor are they.Stand for urself! There isn't anything wrong with anyone, it's just our thinking that needs to be a good one.
Hating is easy, and anyone can do that very easily, but loving someone and respecting them for what they really are, is a virtue, not possessed by many.Be that rare person, and instead of hating yourself too, because others do, let your action, your behavior make them regret the fact that they judged you wrong then.

Our world begins with us, we are exactly what we think of ourselves, never,never let yourself think bad about you. If we seriously can't love and respect us for what we are, it will be very easy for people to hurt, reject and go ..And obviously no one will ever wish that to happen with them.Dont hate Yourself, neither let anyone else hate you.Life's way way too precious to be hated and felt bad for what one is, my friend 😊

Thankyou for sharing this piece.Nicely penned.😊


-Saumya

[Neville]

Thank you so much for considering these scribbles of mine, they are much appreciated and I sincerely hope others will benefit from them. As for me, well as previously indicated, 'sometimes my imagination gets the better of me and then, the pen takes over. I intend to pop by your pages as soon as I get back from holiday on Wednesday, until then, All Good Things, Neville

[Saumya]

You're welcome 😊

[barleygirl]

I fight this fight all the time. It never ends, much like the repetition in your poem. The times when the words taper off, these are the luscious moments when outside influences distract me from my own tedious thoughts. Quite graphic. I think many of us hate ourselves rather than the other person, becuz it feels so bad to be so stupid as to fall blindly like a fool *sigh!* Fondly, Margie

[Neville]

Hey Margie, thank you so much for stopping to consider these words, your visits are always welcome and appreciated. I will stop by your pages as soon as I get back into the UK on Wednesday. Until then All Good Things & virtual hug on its way, Neville

[Paul Bell]

I don't know if some days we wake up this way.
Totally in destructive mode.
Someone has to be blamed
But in the end. It's all down to us.

[Neville]

You could be write my friend, cheers, Neville

[Mrudula Rani]

Iam speechless. The words sound like a painful moan of an unappreciated soul. A Dark and unhappy picture.

[Neville]

Aye, not a joyous write but I thank thee all the same for making it worthwhile.......N

[Mrudula Rani]

You are sir, a versatile writer!- all the best.