Why Did It Have To Be You?

The story behind this is about a rape victim who just realized the man she used to know isn't the man she knows anymore, and is blaming herself for what had happened.

This was my mistake;
I can't believe I let you

Tear me into a billion pieces!

The damage that you have done is permanent,

Even if you didn't mean to in any way.

Why did I let you get close?;

Get as far as you can away from me!

Now that I see you as what you weren't before,

I'm going to erase you from my memories

In alcohol and pain;

It might make you vanish

For as long as I live.

 

Author's Note

The words just came to me while I was listening to 'Anywhere But Here' by Sick Puppies. I give them a lot of credit to half the poems I've written tonight. :D Plus, Anywhere But Here is an addictive song. XD
Also, this is NOT ABOUT ME! Just wanted to point that out.

Reviews

[Jillian Alexis]

I hope you are not writing this from experience Nicole. You have described the "Aftermath" of a Rape excellently. The Victims feel guilty, taking the blame for the Rapist's actions. It is a horrendous thing to go through. You have penned this excellently...Hugz...Jillian

[Bennett Logan]

I'll start by saying that I'm glad this is not about you. Definately glad about that. As far as this piece is concerned, I thought it was too explanatory. If you want to look into revising this poem, I have a couple suggestions:
1. Remove any words or line that do not absolutely need to be there. I find that poems are done (or close to being done) once every word has become necessary.
2. Use more descriptive language. Provide the reader with a verbal picture of this putrid human being about whom the narrator is speaking.

And that's about all I've got. Keep up the good work and I hope I could be of some assistance.

this is quite sad, but it's also very true, after such traumatic events people distract themselves in anyway possible, usually resulting in such things as drugs, drinking, self harm etc. Quite true to life so it's good that you can just put it as it is! :) well done :) xx

[Fantasyfairy]

So often in rape cases, it is the ones that are most trusted that cause the most pain. A vivid poem of pain. XX

[deadlife]

very strong poem...though I don't say it beautiful...it's brutal very much brutal.
It MIGHT make you vanish...so true.
so hard.
bless you.
-rupam

[Imperfection]

It is unfortunate that sometimes those we trust are the ones who let us down and let us down B-A-D-L-Y.
Trusting anyone blindly could lead to lethal consequences.

Well written.

[Not Afraid of Bruises]

powerful stuff. I consider great poetry to be poetry that takes old topics and comparisons and reworks them -makes me see something in a new way. I didn't get that from this poem but it's a great start. best of luck, and thanks for sharing :)

[VERONICA]

loved: "I'm going to erase you from my memories
In alcohol and pain;"

I also really liked the strong voice of the speaker.

I personally would advise taking out "apart" and making the third line "tear me into a billion pieces"

Otherwise it's wonderful!

This is date rape I'm assuming?