Darts

I am the foolish target that had a heart pierced with darts you threw

It's the nagging feeling I try to forget. 

I always carried this burdening regret.

While I see people live their lives forward,

I never moved from where I am like a coward.

I see them chasing their goals and are decided,

While i am always doubting, doing what is expected, and hide in a hole where my fears resided.

Maybe I have made steps, leaps, or jumps in life.

But why does it feel like I'm back at square one after all the strife?

There are times I feel and made myself,

But it's just me failing to cover up my insecurities by acting cool.

Every wrong mistake, judgement, and criticism i took it to the heart.

As if my chest was heavy after being a target for those darts.

But after everything I pull those darts from my chest,

And use them to shoot the right target with my best.

Maybe I had always looked down at my feet and never really seen

What was in front of me and how far I have been.

Throwing the darts is the risk I took.

I have never learned my dream from a book

But from the courage and passion I lit up inside.

I will continue to move forward and cast my fears aside.

I have been foolish but I wasn't stupid enough to keep the darts buried in my heart.

Author's Note

Please tell me what you think of this and my other work too. (I'll review your works too as a thank you)

Reviews

[Starry Poet]

Hi Lily,
what I really enjoyed about this poem was your honest expression. Writing is a great way to get rid of negative emotions and I think you do that with this poem. Even though it seems like you have been through a bad situation, you still remain positive for the future. This poem is more of a traditional style even though the rhyme is imperfect and there isn't a set meter. You've still given it some structure with set stanzas and a kind of pattern to your rhyme. Some of the rhyme felt a little forced, but I like that you didn't compromise the story for structure. I look forward to reading more of your poetry. Nice job! :)

[Psychotic Lily]

Thank you so much for reviewing my work. I use blanko berso (I don't know the english term) where it has rhyme but no meter. And thank you for pointing out about the forced rhymes, I should really work on that. Thank you really! I also look forward to your writing as well.

[Starry Poet]

Oh sure, blank verse maybe :) No problem -- I enjoyed reading your poem, Lily.

[Weeping willow]

Overall I like the poem,it's has encouraging words to it. Often one finds it hard to move forward from the comfort zone they are in and it takes a leap of faith at times to change old habits;-]

[Psychotic Lily]

Thank you for taking the time to review my work.