THE NIGHT BEFORE THE SUICIDE

 

THE  NIGHT  BEFORE  THE  SUICIDE

 

A  Gothic Horror  Poem

 

By  ROBERT  DAVIDSON

 

 

I have killed myself

and today I attend my own funeral -

But last night I went down to the morgue

and there identified your body

 

Electric light gives a certain grace to the dead!

those awful slabs - unknown corpses laid out side by side

rigid forms cold on marble slabs

 

Water distends a corpse grotesquely

parchment skin bloats a  drowned girl

Your smile frozen, mocking - your stiff set lips -

and then comes a moment in which

I have gone through more than I lived in years

 

Heavy with emotion, I cry

Life is very cruel and love the cruelest cut of all …

If I could not have you, why then  -

I gripped your dress and your flesh with it

and made you face the darkening river.

You didn’t think I’d do it! You didn’t think I’d push!

 

What should I do with my love for you?

hate it, fear it, because it is too much for me?

such cruel stabs of pain love gives -

I stood on the very knife-edge of life.

 

In all things human there is a shedding of tears

as we struggle with each other for love

And now in a dream scream

I burst my skin open, letting the blood run

I open my throat with a knife.

 

As a ghost I stand by

as they lower my coffin into the ground -

In all the searchings of my heart

I have never felt more wounded, more broken, more alone

Your last words to me as keen as blade-thrusts -

Now knowing my soul would never rest

I knew  my defeat was complete.

 

Copyright 2006

 

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Reviews

[K C Scott]

Very intense! There is a ring of truth to this that is almost too real for me. Truely a great read!

[justjenn_2u]

How deep! Looking in from the outside into your life, subconsious. I felt so intruigued reading this piece. Perhaps when one does take his/her own life, the soul will never rest in peace.

Very flowing poem with a definate thought provoking subject.

[PureSyn]

Greetings Robert. The imagery used in this piece made the scene and the mood of the moment all to clear and real. I found myself feeling heavy with sadness after completing the read. Kudos on such a vivid and captivating write!

nicole