Better this way

To tell you the truth angel,
I don't know what is my feelings.
Maybe I've fallen down and reached my limit.
My patience has already been broken.

Yet I had never truly showed that I'm hurt so much.
I had always failed to showed that I'm truly happy.
So I'm back to my cold empty shell.
I am returning to my former self, it's much safer.

And when I feel loveless,
I don't have to question whether I truly deserve.
I don't want to love you.
I don't want to care.
Because I feel like it will all go away.

I think it's better if I leave before you do.
That way I'll feel that I am responsible for my next loneliness.
If I'm the one created my own pain
I am convinced that I'll feel better.

Because the thing that's called love
Is much painful and full of lies.
I don't want to love you.
You seems better without me.
Please go away.

Now go and reach him who's admiring you.

Now that you have left,
We don't have to live in pretentious anymore.
Your emotions is slowly gone,
You don't love me like you did.

Then I will follow your way.
I don't want to love you.
It seems better this way.
You are much better off without me.

Because if I really die
You don't have to pretend that you care.

Author's Note

This isnt mines first off, its someones that I deeply care for...and in love with...he wrote it. This isnt fair Jeffrey.

Reviews

[Kaylor Mason]

This is really hard in its emotions--intense is a good word. I like the imagery of it, the way it describes the infinite complexities of relationships and feeling--nothing is ever the way it seems, not for anyone; even when they see themselves. A lot of people miss that when writing about things like romance/attachment/lust/commitment, whatever. Real life is never as simple and clear-cut as it is written down, and that comes through in this poem, I feel. It's a nice poem, raw and fresh. Beautiful work :)

[Steve]

This is well writtne and so very emotional......I hope this isnt true in your case.

[Jonathan De Elvira]

i'm so sorry Lexi...something just keeps bothering my mind...and...i know it's my fault...i should be hated by you now i know...it's just....something has happened to me and i kept it bottled up inside...i'm so sorry...