I Continue to Plead

As I look around,
all I see is pain...

The waterfalls keep flowing,
the tiny droplets of little rain...

There's nothing to stop,
the feelings that are inside...

There's nothing to stop,
the feeling that I've died...

As I look around at the many different faces,
I begin thinking of joyful memories...

I think nothing can replace this,
except for my wish to finally decease...

Because when I'm alone,
in the darkness of my den...

I plead God to kill me already,
I plead myself to sin...

I can't do it to my family,
it'd tear them all apart...

But the way I'm breaking inside,
it leaves me with no heart...

I cry as I write,
I do as I bleed...

But God won't take me yet,
so I continue to plead...