dead memories

memories of my dogtags

Silver sheen as if moon light on a gloomy evening reflects sadness on a face that seems not bothered.

Silver resembles sadness that ensembles hate within a ring I wish was of death.

When I look at it brings tears to my mind because my eyes are not man enough to cry,

but how could it be so difficult when memories of distraught are formed?

Tyranny of a lonely soul, pleasure of aching hearts, I am a contradiction, because my metaphors are complete opposites.

My tags were a gift from the enemy that tortured me with lies,

but I guess I was the gullible one for believing them, because who else can tell me about myself besides me?

My tags bring dead memories as they hang lifelessly from a suffocating neck that inhales blades that get stuck like a dorito that wasn't chewed properly. It hurts.

But through the horror I cry shades of blue that shine from a metallic core that symbolizes my cold rugged heart born of compressed agony, uniting as one. It reminds me of what almost made me a darkness, a thing that hates the world. I wouldn't be considered a human because I'm in a world of gays and I'm the only one that isn't happy. My smile is a self privilege, if I did it habitually it'd be insane because I don't have a change in feeling.

It's interesting. The tag splits in two, I think it represents a duality in personality. The tag separates leaving emptiness for the good times, hanging out down the street the same ole' thing we did last week, we as teenagers are immortal, my life was never that complicated. I moved into Satan's wallet ignorant of the idea of what a home actually was. Struck by swift hands of splinter, it stings my cheek while being blinded by a smile of deceit. Happy memories.

Author's Note

umm, a memoir? i promise to catch up on read request but be patient because i have like 100 of them, most of them are stories :/

Reviews

[Nicole]

Wow xavier, good s**t. When you comin' back down to visit?

[Ruth]

Yep, that hit the spot! lol As spoken word love, this would be excellent! Quite emotional strings put to it I feel, wow!
xx

[Romeion Case]

hmmm painful and personal at times....but most imprtantly honest. :-) Good job letting all this out. :-) it was a great read.

[Mistaken]

The structure is good :) and wow...I absolutely loved this piece..it was amazing...I can't even describe it

[Ruth]

I like the structure, never apologise hon!
If its a good poem, it should stand out whatever the structure is!
Awesome wording used here and a real sense of despair! And yet, something surreal!

"It's interesting. The tag splits in two, I think it represents a duality in personality. "

Interesting!
A great piece of work, I actually think it would suit freeform, such as a diary entry, that would be cool :)
xx

[X]

sorry about the structure of the poem lol