Escaping From The Dark

Does it really matter what anybody thinks or does it just affect me when people point out the obvious bullshit? Personally, I think it hurts me the most when someone decides to bring up the past - my past.
 That hurts the most; if you ask me.
If I could go back five years, and compare my life now to then; the results would summon up to be, "I'm too freaking nice. Being too nice made me become more emotional."
I used to be a cold-hearted b***h but suddenly, my thoughts switched up on me, and I began to change slowly, without realizing it for myself.
I don't know if it's a good thing or not,
but I love how much I accept myself now.
I created this sort of acceptance towards my own-self created disorder.
 I, Itzel Moctezuma possess the unthinkable.
 I am numb to the pain forth which the world has created upon myself for several years, and many more to come.
If you were to ask me, "how do you feel about it, though?" My response would be,
 "I have an enormous amount of hatred inside my heart; that love is the only thing I could possibly give.."
and that...
 that is quite rare. Questioning it all just makes me grow even more. Whether if it involves only my emotions.
Insanity is not common, but it is a possibility;
It'll make you shine like a new penny.
My word of advice to you all..
"Love because you feel it,
    not because you're scared of it;
Love yourself more than I did
  because it'll make you even bolder
     when the time comes and you finally lose it,
especially the way I did.
It fooled me because i acted careless and that's the reason behind my misery..
It'll always involve it, regardless to any scenery. The pain is what kept me going..
     it actually saved me."