Alone

written while I was a patient in hospital.

I’m alone with my sadness

my only companion is my suicidal thoughts

everything is a black hole, especially my mind

I want to destroy myself

I have lost my will to live, it has run off with my hope

leaving me miserable and lonely

outside, the weather strongly contrasts with me

as many times as the sun and clouds come out, the faster I sink into the dark abyss

the darkness surrounds me, comforting, 

as it is the feeling that I have grown to accept and feel the most

it seems friendly at first, makes you sleepy, 

keeps you company when you push everyone else away

but then, it attacks

it now controls you, taking a hold on your thoughts and turning them against you

with a dizzying spiral of shame and self-hatred 

it makes you despise the monster you’ve become

you see the only way to rid yourself of the darkness is to make everything quiet forever

you no longer want to live, and that scares you.

Reviews

[V. P. Trujillo]

Ultimately lies with self, that's what I view in this. A hint of it, just don't let go, you are your greatest power.

[OnePiece]

Let The Sun Shine & Clear Ur View
Let Birds Sing You Another Morning Melody
Dont Let Ur Depression Eat You Up To Misery
Have Mercy Pretty Young Thing , Nothing Is What It Seem Now A Days, Let Out Ur Dragon Breath & InHale Slowly
& Jus Look @ The Bright Side, When You Reach The Other Side Of The Mountain
Maintain Who You Are ,
Is only Right IF You Look At The Big Picture
You Are in Control For Sure ,
Pain Is Pleasure , I Know I Know ,
Jus Dont Be Afraid Or Scared You Are Not Alone
I Will Bend The Rules & Make This Ur New Home
You Are A Beautiful Monster ,
P.S. Hope U Enjoy It Love

[Alexis]

Such a "taunting poem," someone else would say, but I must say that this is what has become of my life. Your words give a lot of meaning.

Welcome to WC and please don't hesitate to send me reading requests. (: