What She Left

There are certain people you'll love forever

 

You left me with a storm to defeat 

With thorns growing at my feet 

Poking through every rough patch 

Getting to the core of me 

You knew me like the clouds know 

The simple hues of blue in the morning sky above us

And still I would lose and get hurt and most of all:

Love 

 

You left me with a maze my mind has to make it though 

With puzzles made of missing pieces 

Tales without proper endings 

So I wrote this one for us

Too many stories told already 

Too late to erase them 

And I'd write about losing, hurting, and most of all:

Loving 

 

Your storms kept me alive 

In some sick twisted form, I couldn't predict 

I would hold onto them for dear life 

For fear of losing you and the place you held 

I couldn't lose what burned the most 

Cause every fire lit me up and kept me warm 

I wondered how far love goes without doing harm 

And I'd wait all night in the cold and rain 

Before you'd open the door to see me on your front porch 

And I'd lose, and hurt, and most of all:

Love 

 

I held your crumbling heart

Your shaking hands until they were still 

But I guess a true heart went out of style 

And I guess heartbreak stopped being aesthetic 

And I would sit as your tears created a flood

That washed away every town we built together 

And the mountains shook with your anger 

The sun warmed up with your love

And I don't know which hurt more to lose 

But still I would lose and hurt and most of all:

Love 

 

Picture frames fly in front of my face 

Surround me with laughs I can't replace

and smiles and late nights 

I sit in a tornado of traditions and inside jokes 

Mixed in with nicknames and time 

 that was so significant it took up your whole life

Things that stay with you forever 

Things you can't ever forget 

Things that made me hurt and lose and most of all:

Love 

 

And I'll blow your memory away 

I'll pretend the empty passenger seat is normal 

And I'll smile at the pictures of our smiles 

And I'll run away from it for awhile 

Until it's something I can face          

 Until every messy bed of a thought is made 

And I can get up every day and assure myself that I made the right decision 

But I don't know if I'll ever know that 

All I know is that I'll forever hurt and lose and most of all:

 love You