A Feeling of Pure Panic

This is about the feelings that come along with having anxiety and panic attacks. I have experienced them all my life, and I know what it's like when it just gets too hard. I hope others can relate.

They tell you just to breathe, 

That it will soon be gone.

But the problem is not in my lungs. 

My mind creates this phenomenon.

It has never been so hard, 

Just to take a single breath.

Like looking out upon a graveyard 

And feeling close to death. 

A second lasts a lifetime

The moment never seems to end. 

It's a cliff I begin to clime

A trail with one last bend.

Bu I never reach the top

And never get to rest. 

I wait for the panic to stop,

But I still remain possessed. 

This thing has taken hold of me,

And no matter how hard I try, 

It holds me tight under lock and key.

Just waiting for me to die. 

Then finally it's over, 

My body drained of air. 

I wait for sleep to takeover,

Until I am no longer aware. 

The stress of the day is gone, 

But I have yet to see, 

That when this night drifts into dawn, 

The feeling will return to me. 

If only I could realize

That this is all inside my head. 

I dread the inevitable sunrise 

Not even feeling safe inside my bed. 

If only I could stay sleeping, 

So I will not have to face the day. 

This panic leaves memories not worth keeping,

And yet they never seem to go away. 

One day I will break free

From this unforgiving cold.

I will live my life the way it should be.

My mind will finally be controlled. 

Author's Note

I hope some of you could relate to this. Please tell me your honest opinion on the poem because I have never written about my anxiety before this.

Reviews

[Saddi Moix]

You have used lots of vivid descriptive words in your poem. I could visualize how you are feeling. I connected with your poem because I have had panic attacks. You described the panic attacks very well. I think that you should keep writing.
#lrwp2018

[Annie Rachele]

Thank you! I’m happy that you were able to connect with what I was writing about. It makes me feel less alone with it.

[Coyote Poetry]

Powerful description of the panic attack.
"One day I will break free
From this unforgiving cold.
I will live my life the way it should be.
My mind will finally be controlled. "
I liked the above lines. Stress and life can test us. Thank you Annie for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Annie Rachele]

Thank you for your review and for reading my poem! I really appreciate it

[Coyote Poetry]

Was my pleasure Annie and you are welcome.