Infestation

Infestation

A Story by chandlerl

There's a quote, by some man I can no longer recall and that quote is, "Hating someone, is like burning down your house to kill a rat." That could not be more true. I spend my life thinking and obsessing over resentments and whether or not people like me. It took me years to truly understand this quote. I am a recovering addict. I have a little over 4 months clean today. I am just finally starting to feel like I'm getting my brain back.

Now think of this analogy. Your brain is a house. It's your house. No one can go in except you, unless you invite them. The rat, is the person you're obsessing over, you've unintentionally let them in. Instead of waiting patiently for that rat to leave or to die off. You egg it on. Unaware that you are dropping crumps for it to thrive on and grow bigger. You are letting it control your mind. Hearing little scratches as it runs across the floor, catching glimpses of it. This is where the drugs came in for me. If this part doesn't apply to you then make it what you wish. The drugs are like a slower fire for your mind..your house.

I destroyed my house. Because of growing resentments, I used fire to distract myself. Then, on day, I took a look at my house from the outside and there it lay in ruins. The ruins of something so big , that was brought down by something so small.

Now, I'll be damned, that after working so hard to build back my house, that I'll let ANY rat come in and let, not the rat, (It was not the rat that ruined my house), but myself destroy it again.

© 2013 chandlerl



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chandlerl
Dedicated to the program of NA, for which, I am sure, I would not be here without

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chandlerl
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