Unconscious Venting

You give me all of your love

I give you all of my time

You give me all of your body

Cause I give you the rush of your life

And I know I haven't been perfect

And you're even further from the fact

There's some things I might've said

That I should probably take back

And I can't control the past

So I'll leave it where it's at

And I don't know what the future holds

So I'm forced to worry about now

And I don't know about you

But I been worried 'bout me

Cause life ain't getting easier

I have more responsibilities

And people don't really care as much

Unless you're fulfilling their needs

And I've just been trying to be the one that everyone comes to see

Lately I've been thinking about what life has planned for me

But I ain't really complaining, no, I'm quite blessed for 18

My mind is full of doubt sometimes

I barely trust myself

But myself is all I have, right down to my death

And I know that I seem happy a lot

That's probably because I am

But when I have my bad days

I feel smaller than what I am

No one understands me, no, even when they say they do

Cause you can't be me, no, and I can't be you

I wrote this here on a spur ya know

Didn't even know this is how I really felt

But this is my life ya know

I'm just dealing the cards I've been dealt.