Drowning in Fear

Sometimes fear can be so powerful that you feel you are drowning in it. Especially fear of losing someone you love.

When it rains it pours, and I'm drowning
         ...can't you see?
That I'm caught up in this onslaught of tears
and misery.
I'm treading water, but fading fast,
and I wonder how much longer my strength will last.
What weight will be too great
for me to overcome?
How many more storms can I weather
until I come undone?
Somewhere deep in my heart
I know it must be true
that I would continue to float
even if you should fall through.
But the storm clouds are hiding
this painful hazy truth,
and the sun won't shine out
to show me any proof.
That all will not be lost
in the dread of raging seas,
even when the weight of it
makes me crumble to my knees.
As I am crushed by the thought
of living life without you.
Even as the water rises,
and I'm surrounded by blue.
Will I still know your love
if you're no longer here?
Or will it fade into darkness,
           ....eclipsed by my tears?

Author's Note

My grandmother had a stroke on Sunday, and Monday evening my father called me to tell me he was diagnosed with cancer. My emotional load lately is getting a little too heavy.

Reviews

[AmandaN]

A beautifully written poem that expresses just how s**t life is sometimes, thank you so much for sharing.
I too am sorry for your pain and hope that things get brighter for you,and the load lessens.

[ChaoticSoul]

I am so, so sorry that you are going through that with your grandmother and father. I lost both my grandmother and my father and before I review this piece I want to tell you if you ever need to just talk or vent you can feel free to message me with anything.
-And onto the review: I love water imagery so much and you use is gorgeously in this piece. I felt like I was reading the lyrics to song; it flows really well like that. Your emotions are conveyed powerfully and every words just captures the reader's attention so much. Beautiful writing.