My Whole Self

I'm just wishing again!

I want her so desperately

I found myself praying , just now,

on my way back from taking my daughter to school,

how I would give my all to a relationship with her,

without reservation

no holding back

strive on a daily basis,

no make it my mission on a daily basis

to never grow complacent

to never take that gift for granted

to always be present, intimate

to always be considerate, and grateful,

to always be humble

and never prideful

to always be willing to compromise

to always choose giving over taking

to always be there for her

to always strive to be the best me I am capable of being

because if I ever was that lucky that she loved me

she would deserve my very best,

always!

Author's Note

Again I'm fairly certain,it's hopeless, and I'm still cursed, but also when I was praying about it I asked God to make me into someone she could fall in love with, because I never ask God to interfere with people's free will. Right now I just can't help it, I want this woman with everything I've got, and I'm not just talking sex I wish I could be ith her for keeps. I know I don't know her that well, so I try to resist saying I'm in love with her, but that's the way I feel, and I want to know everything about her. No what I want is much more that sex, however she does turn me on more trhan anyone has in the last 40 years.