I Take It Back

When my first relationship ended, I became depressed, and it has started even before that. This I wrote to contradict My Inability to Predict the Future. I'm sorry, David.

Forgive me for i've just begun to think my last poem through
At times i thought i had it good, when it really wasn't true
From now till then it's been a hell that still could linger on
Though i am surprised i haven't yet cried straight until the dawn

Since then i've been thinking, but now i think i see
A saddening reality check through of course epiphany
But now that i have cleared that up, i now present the show
Of what i have, so recently, come to realize, think, and know:


You just can't imagine all the tears i shed right here tonight
We can't attempt to guess if i'll ever be alright
But i guess it just doesn't matter, because i don't think you will change
Even if it kills me or i completely go insane

Because I'll remember all the little things, and you'll remember none
And i'll always look back and think you could have been the one

I feel that not one kind of love will grace me during my school days
Because i feel i cannot change, try as i might, as i may
But, don't worry, it does grieve me that hope begins to slip away
But the nights, they never end, even if preceeded good days

All because you won't remember, and i just can't forget
Everything that hurt and all the pettiest regrets
And if you ask if i'm ok, the real answers' probably no


And as i'm slowly slipping back into the details of us failed
And finding every minute aspect that made us not prevail
I realize this, that all along, the problem, it was me
I was angry for so long, but now i really see

You said one day you loved me, though it, you never proved
You did everything to make me think it wasn't very true
Until i realized loving the real me was impossible to do
And now that i know this i cannot still try blaming you.

Author's Note

Patience is a virtue, for the flow of words is quite perfect if you read it the way i intend. My personal favorite for length and writing and rhyming combined.

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[Ari]

Way to admit when you're wrong!