Cut Out

I want to just cut out my heart

It's been a constant enemy right from the start

when I meet a girl, I too easily fall

I tried to put up an emotional wall

Although It failed to stay upright

I try and I try to strengthen it up

but another comes along and just messes it up

How many times can I restart and rebuild?

the wall keeps crumbling, my heart never heals

I want it to just go away!

The fleeting moments of joy I feel

Aren't worth the amount of sadness I feel

I want to feel nothing, be an empty shell

honestly right now, I'm in constant hell

If its not one thing its another, it's always something

my heart makes me feel I'm worth next to nothing

I want to understand why I am this way

why I get so wrapped up in my feelings this way

Rather not keep repeating this process

I fear I'll overthink and start to obsess

When the answer is probably right in from of me

With my emotions clouding my sight I'll likely never see

My heart I wish was a friend to me

But as of late its more of an enemy

I would love to wake up with amnesia

and tell you and my heart, that I don't need ya

Reviews

[Kelly Scheppers]

Hi Joshua! Cutting out our hearts seems heartless to me. It would render us emotion-less, unable to feel anything, right? And waking to amnesia doesn't seem worth the wish of wishing for...

I'd suggest a catharsis of sorts, to continue writing. It helps get me over the speed bumps of life, that and a little prayer every now and again.

Take care...and hang in there, ok?

[Joshua McNay]

Cutting it out may have been extreme, I admit. It's just been rough, my brain knows the truth but my heart just never listens. I write to get my feelings out and I usually feel better, lately it's not as potent. Thank you for the review!