Too many emotions

Please enjoy my truthful poem and don't forget to comment

         I am tired of my teardrops falling into my vanilla ice cream
Melting the sweetness
Sick of being stuck here with these dreadful people
Who push and pull you down into a state of puzzlement  
When all I want is to be free
Flying higher than a cheerful bird
InHaLe.... ExHaLe... Smoking is the few seconds of contentment I get
To forget
To ease my soul and thoughts of my infuriating family
And helpless friends
The only person who makes me happy is a person who I can’t be with
Only because they are too far away
Even though I feel like they surround my mind and feelings with enjoyment
I want to tell you how I feel
But I never even know
The only thing I want is something I cannot have
Being stuck with someone controlling your move
                     I feel like a lost puppet
With no sense of direction
Speeding with no where to go nor money for gas
Exhausted of being here when all I want to do is get away

Falling to the ground like clipping of the nails
People step over and kick them to the side
When all I used to think about was death
Nothing even matters anymore when you’re the old toe nail
In reality, I am so screwed up with my thoughts
Shaking my hands with nervousness
I cannot stop these many feelings of depression if I stay here
I am not well I am slowly dying with more pain every day
During the night it’s tough to not over dose on the whiskey on the rocks
These sleepless nights are not what I plan for
They just happen due to my tension headaches.

Reviews

[Jeremy Baker]

The changing font made things a little harder to follow, and distracted me from the message in your words. Although, on reflection, was that to reflect the distractions and upheavals in the events you were expressing? Either way, this was a well written poem and and interesting read. The truth and raw emotion was evident in the vivid metaphors and imagery. One minor typo - you have "direct" after "lost puppet": did you mean "direction"? Nonetheless, a very enjoyable read.

[John Fitzgerald]

very raw and sensitive.

Nothing even matters anymore when you’re the old toe nail
was a highlight for me!

well done.

[joshua deathdealer]

I like the form in this one and your choice of words.." teardrops falling into my vanilla ice cream"..xx

[FallenWingz]

deep yet painfully true esp the emotions of depression, the part in the bold really triggered sumtin in me, cos i stand in teh same space wanting sum1 that is so farawy, yet they all u ever wants....

[Dove]

i truly understand how you feel and these words are brutally honest. This is an amazing poem. You did a GREAT job on this

[hopelessromantic]

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww i understand how u feel

[Wolfwind Words]

I like the brutal honesty in these words. The ink brings a few things into my mind.

"Everything happens for a reason at any given moment in time."
"Distance in a union of two is the hardest journey to bare, but leads to the greatest reward."
"When one feels pain, it is only a reminder that they are still capable of feeling love."

I must now ramble an opinion regarding families. While it may be apparently clear upon the surface of their actions, that they cause stress, inflict hurt through misunderstanding and act in ways that one might consider completely out of line, one thing remains, even if it's deep and buried. That would be a simple truth that families love their members, no matter how awkward showing that love gets. Pray for the best, understand the words and remember that when there is will, there is way. If things are so negative, than use that willpower to find a way onto a better path.

Life and love are two powerful teachers in journey we humans get pooped out onto. Better to learn and grow, than lament and wilt.

Great Ink!
Wolfie

[MAC]

sounds like teenhood. excellent write!

[The old me]

extremely well written. great imagery in emotions showed in the writing.