Solomon Lee

and in those five seconds i wanted to tell him everything

i wanted to tell him that sometimes i can’t sleep

because my thoughts are so fast

and the voices are so loud

that peace and quiet isn’t an option

i wanted to tell him that sometimes

i run away from home

just to be alone

i wanted to tell him about the scars

and the years of my life i spent in locked rooms and closets

and the brokenness

and the isolation

in those five seconds i wanted to look him in the eye

and tell him that i wasn’t okay

and that i don’t even know what “okay” feels like

and that i probably never will

in those five seconds i wanted to show him how much i longed to be happy

and that i wasn’t there by mistake

i wanted to tell him that i knew very well that i was trespassing

i knew very well that i was posing a liability to the establishment

and a hazard to myself

hell, that’s why i was there in the first place

i knew i was in the wrong place at the wrong time

i just didn’t care

because when all you do is act on impulses

you stop caring

in those five seconds i wanted to show him everything that i keep to myself

but those five seconds passed

and i smiled so sweetly and left the premises

Reviews

[Clara]

I loved this and related to it.

Burdens are hard to bear -- but I suppose, by bearing them alone... we save everyone else from the weight.

[Baby Ricochet]

Leaving was the better choice. People don't need to know everything

[Coyote Poetry]

"i wanted to tell him that sometimes
i run away from home
just to be alone"
I like the tone and the internal thoughts in the poem. Most of us keep secrets. I tell people some memories only can cause pain. Better left dead and bury. I like the lines above. Alone time is when we can hide from what we fear and wander off to new places. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote