All MaroonA Story by Sarah“I think you should go home now.” Across the street from Isaac’s
apartment, the sun was rising. The streets, still with sleepiness, were being
touched by the first whispers of brightness. Ghostly silver light breathed in
through the windows and was cut by the blinds into stripes spread out across
the old carpet in the shape of rungs on the ladder. Their pattern led his eyes
to her shadow. Bruised, Alyssa sat on his old
couch, hugging her knees to her chest. She bit her nails, tasting the dirt
underneath. She sighed, hoping to change his mind. “Isaac…” she whispered, letting the
softness of her voice drop into the fleeting darkness with weight. “Isaac, I
love you.” * Last night might as well have been
a dream. All Isaac could remember were the lights blurring from green to yellow
to red behind the rain and how he watched them change as he waited for her to
move. He recognized her silhouette and as she kneeled on the sidewalk in a
puddle, someone ran away with the backpack she always wore. He didn’t see the
impact, but only how she fought to bring herself up from the ground, grabbing
her face where they guy had punched her. Isaac, without thinking, drove up next
to her and pulled her into his car. “Alyssa,”
he told her, “It’s me. I got you. I got you.” They drove off and no one spoke, but the
windshield wipers swished back and forth to the rhythm of her breathing. Huddled
into a ball on the passenger seat, Alyssa held her cheek because it hurt and
the first signs of blues and violets were already discoloring her face. She was
looking at him, he could tell, even though his eyes never left the traffic
lights. They walked into his apartment and
her clothes were soaked through so he drew a bath. He told her he would hang
her clothes to dry while she washed herself off, all the while avoiding looking
at her bruised face. He turned his back as Alyssa undressed and stepped into
the tub, listening the swish and splash of the water, imagining how the tiny
waves looked like as they broke against her ribs. He reached for the door knob
and started to leave to give her privacy, but she called to him. “No, wait. Isaac,” she cried in the
same voice she always used, just strong enough to cover the shakiness. It
reminded Isaac of the Alyssa he met two month ago. Alyssa, who flirted with him
for his coffee money. Alyssa, who smiled until he rolled down the window and
laughed in the darkness with him until the light turned to green. Alyssa, who
told him she lived at the bus station and that any family she had left would’ve
forgotten about her by now. Isaac turned and he saw her bare,
caramel skin under the water. In the reflections she cast, she looked so
different then he remembered, not smoky and soft, but brittle and breaking. Fresh
bruises surrounded the right side of her face like violent storm clouds of reds
and purples and blues, enveloping her eyes. The harshness of light and white of
the tiles and bathtub made her look painted, like canvas experiments where the
colors were all wrong. He fought against the urge to look at her face, watching
the shadows she made instead, watching the arch of her spine instead, closing
his eyes and listening to her voice instead. “Could you just stay with me,
please?” “Sure,” Isaac said and, for the
first time all night, met her gaze. When Alyssa realized she was watching him, she
broke. Alyssa sobbed loudly and
breathlessly as tears flooded down her face. She shook violently and her mouth
was distorted with the realness of the pain she was feeling as if it was the
first time she ever let herself feel. Isaac ran to her and let her clutch onto his
shoulders while she cried. The ends of her hair were wet and Isaac could feel
them stuck to his neck. But he grabbed her, sank into the water with her, and
absorbed the shock of her sobbing. They
stayed in that position until the lights above them flickered, until the water
in the tub turned cold. Isaac wrapped Alyssa in a towel and brought her
something dry to wear. * But now it was morning and the
sidewalks were already dry after last night’s rainfall. Now Isaac couldn’t look
at Alyssa without thinking of the girl in his bathtub holding on his t-shirt. Yesterday,
she was just this girl at an intersection who stopped him every night to ask
for change. But now she was Alyssa. She was this real girl now, biting her
bottom lip and waiting for Isaac to say something. Isaac drew the blinds and opened a
window to let the fresh air in. He breathed and turned to her. “How you feel about me doesn’t really matter,”
he answered. Alyssa shifted her weight and sat
up, holding onto her knees. “So you want me to leave, then?” Isaac
wished that he could say no, that it was as simple as him asking her stay and
Alyssa saying yes. He wished had it in
him to be that kind of hero, the guy who saves the battered homeless girl
letting her into his house. He wished he could muster up the courage to say
what he was thinking. Yeah I need you here with me just as much as you need me
to take care of you; or yeah, the way you looked at me last night was the first
time any one looked at me like I was good enough to save them; or yeah, I love
you, too, Alyssa. I love you, too. But Isaac
couldn’t. He didn’t say anything. He didn’t even look at her as she left, but
only heard the door slam shut. The silver light of dawn was already bright with
sunrise and he watched Alyssa from the window as she ran down the street, all
maroon and blazing, vanishing behind an old building that cowered in shadows
etched by the rising sun. © 2012 Sarah |
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Added on September 16, 2012 Last Updated on September 16, 2012 |