In my mind

I know I didn't write this very well but I just want to get it out of my head.

In my mind, 

The echo of my thoughts crash against my eardrums like bullets. 

The shrapnel that explodes across this silent graveyard that withheld my happiness, falls short. 

Leaving tears in my memories,

And holes in my emotions. 

It spreads throughout my body like A poison with no antidote, 

Like a virus that no one understands 

hat's the thing with depression no one really understands.

There's some that will, 

Because we have the same friends that we bring to the party. 

The unwanted visitor from out of town. 

Following me everywhere I go, like my shadow I'm too scared to look at. 

The s****y roommate, 

They engulf the room with darkness until the light no longer exists.

I throw chairs at the windows and rip down the ceiling,

But, it's as if the sun has died.

There's nothing.

But this black hole that won't end. 

I am the last lackluster molecule of oxygen I have left, 

And I am suffocating.

I wake up next to their welcoming face,

They convince me to sink into the mattress. 

Close the curtains.

Shut off my phone.

It takes pieces of me and builds impenetrable walls. 

I have clawed all the crippled reasons why I believe there is still hope into floors.

I am trapped within this void where screams cannot be heard. 

I have traced this tear stained face for something worth living for, 

I don't find much. 

I fell out of touch with myself. 

But I'm still standing. 

I bare open wounds and clench my jaw until teeth turn into dust,

I climb over these walls with broken bones and fall back to the starting line.

It's a race against myself, 

And I'm determined to win.

Author's Note

Sorry if it not great but I wanted to get it out of my head