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What I Really Mean (Part 2)

What I Really Mean (Part 2)

A Poem by Tessa Melendez

Saying what I really mean in my head.

The cold nips my skin,
Nearly nothing compared to the pain within,
Still, I pull on a jacket,
And sit on the steps outside the cafeteria,
My music plays so loud,
Blocking out all sound
As I put my head down,
And wrap my arms around my knees
Letting the music set the new bout of pain free

As you lean upon the metal railing
Inquiring about what is wrong with me
I don't reply
Simply unable to find the words to make the truth fly
But, what I really wish to say is...
"It hurt when you pushed me away the other day."

As you come around to stand before me,
Leaning in close to my face, your eyes dark as space
As you say my name, dragging it out endlessly,
I close my eyes, feeling the tears coming
Taking me to this dark place
What I really want to say is...
"I cannot look into your eyes innocently when you're so close"

As you lean close to my ear
Asking if what I want is to be left alone
I listen to your tone
Giving no reply
Only wishing we never have to say good-bye
But, I really wish to say...
"Please never leave me alone
Come up beside me and hold me close."

As you walk away,
Leaving me alone
I turn my music up louder, wishing you'd have stayed
I see you glancing at me on the bus
Never one to make a fuss
But, I sit alone and let the tears go
But, I wish I could say,
"Could you please come beside me and give me a kiss?"

Just wash these thoughts and pains away
They're something I truly won't miss.

© 2017 Tessa Melendez

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Added on December 4, 2016
Last Updated on September 24, 2017


Tessa Melendez
Tessa Melendez

Bear, DE

I am 17 years old and have been writing since I was 12 years old. I prefer to write stories that are relatively long because, short stories just don't happen for me. :) I also like doing sci-fi/sup.. more..