Three months.

Happy three months aniversary to my boyfriend, Rodney Martin Darrow, who exceeds to every aspect behind the definition of incredible.

So I guess this is where it ends,

This is where it begins...

All the thoughts that I promised myself

Would make one day make sense,

Are emerging

With some form of explanation.

Logic was once all lost,

When I once took my insides out.

Letting them disintegrate,

Leaving my heart within me. 

For some reason,

Believing, hoping,

It would make sense one day.

But my faith began to parachute,

The faith I had when I decided

To hold onto my heart.

But I'm standing here now,

Breathless, questions erased.

Because I'm standing face to face,

Your presence filling up the blank sky...

Your presence like the wind, pushing away,

All the fog, the mystery,

As to why I held onto my heart.

I held onto it...

So you could be holding it now.