Im not sure

I am poor I live in a mobile home and my parents drive a 2005 Ford Escape with many problems. My mom works at a grocery story as a cashier and my dad really doesn't do much. He was diagnosed with depression a while ago. He goes to a therapist but I don't think any things getting better my mom makes $20 an hour and my dad make $700 a month. After a while I've just gotten tired of living like this nothing has changed my parents tell me to be normal but how am I supposed to be normal when I can't even make friend how am I supposed to be normal when my parents spend the little extra money they have on rum and cigarettes how am I supposed to be normal when I'm trying to act happy but all I feel is sad how am I supposed to be normal when I'm not I'm tired of being told to stop being negative I'm tired of being told to make plans with my friends when everything costs money that we don't have I'm tired of dreaming about being rich I'm tired of dreaming that I had a perfect family I'm tired of wishing to be accepted in life.