Toy Box

My (now ex) best friend ignored me for a few weeks before she replaced me with someone who has money and a car. So I'm pretty pissed and upset.

I was once told by you that I was a gift

That you would play with me till the end

I was once told that you would always be there with me

That you would always love me

When you first opened me up I was brand new and shiny

I had a painted smile on face but it felt real when I looked at you

You held me close and it felt real even though I was not

Every day after we were together playing and laughing

It was a wonderful feeling

That, someone, wanted to play with me

Someone wanted to pull me at night while they slept

Of course some days you wouldn’t pick me up

Sometimes I could see someone else come over and you would talk to them

I wasn’t sure why because you had me to talk to

But that smile on my face remained not because it was painted on but because I could still see you

Some days I would sit there and wait for you to come back to play

You were too tired to even look at me

Sometimes you wouldn’t even think about me

I tried not to worry too much, I’m sure your kind needed some rest

So I would wait until you were ready

You would come back eventually

Sometimes longer than others but you would come back

And the painted smile on my face would feel real again

I would feel real again

You would use your shirt to wipe the dust from my eyes

Adjust my small clothing

Bush my hair gently because one would stick out from its place

Even hold my hand and cry because you said you missed me so much

You told me I was made for you

That you wish your gift was real

So that I would stay with you forever

And I said I would

I was ready and willing

Because it all felt real with you

I loved you as much as you said you loved me

You threw me into an old box like you had the others

I thought I was broken like the others

You wouldn’t play with me because I needed to be fixed

I thought I wasn’t good enough

I thought I was the problem

I wasn’t what you wanted

I was only temporary

I wasn’t something you needed

I was something of convenience

Little did I know that I wasn’t the first

I wasn’t the only one who had fallen for your affection

To me, you were my everything

But to you, I was just another toy.