Poison

Written on 3/19/18. This was for one of my friends, who was like an older sibling to me. One of my half sisters were having problems with my parents, and my friend helped me during this time.

I’ve been wondering
Why weren’t you there?
But now I understand
That you really don’t care

Now, every memory of ours
Is being tainted
With poisonous lies
Our happiness is fading
I wish that this was just a dream and nothing more

I know that this was
Your choice, but it still hurts
To know that you won’t even acknowledge me
That you’ll forget about me

Personally, I hope
That you come back
I don’t want to lose another sibling
My heart’s beginning
To crack into pieces

I want to remember you
Your smile, your voice
Your laugh, everything
But I also want to forget

I don’t know why this affects me so much
But it just brings me closer to insanity
To think about how I have
Lost some who I’m close to

Who encouraged me

Who healed my wounds

Who shaped me into the person I am,

And now...you.