Kitana, My Lady!

A narrated artist's 'portrait' of what makes his haunting fascination/love towards a video-game 'avatar' (Kitana - Mortal Kombat) so 'significantly'...drunk!

An offbeat 'love-tale' inspired by Weird Science, to sign off with. Signing off, 

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My name is Amlan Satan. I'm an artist. I write short-stories and make comic book art, and I post most of this online. I'm an inheritor of a princely-fortune, and I spend most of my time at home working on my arts. I don't really have too many friends, though I look upon my high-school/college associations and networks with great fondness and romance, even if most of such 'associations' these days are business-oriented. I consider myself a self-wrought daily artist, and I sometimes offer advice to other artists/writers who work in the same 'medium' I do. I also try to present myself in my self-personifications as well-dressed and hygienic. I sometimes go out on dates, with people I might meet at a restaurant, a bookstore, or at a supermarket, but I don't think I'll ever get married. I do have however a strange if magical secret.

Ever since I was growing up, I'd become a fanatic of video-games. I love it all --- Nintendo, Sega, Atari, Playstation, Xbox, you name it, folks! I've played many video-games in my life, and my favorites include Tecmo Bowl, Kings of the Beach, Mega-Man, Strider, Ninja Gaiden, FIFA Soccer, Madden, Pac-Man, Missile Command, BattleChess, Winter Olympics, California Games (Atari Lynx), and X-Men. However, my favorite video-game of all time is Mortal Kombat, a rather graphic new-era combat-themed game, featured well on most modern/advanced platforms like Playstation. In fact, Mortal Kombat is my secret I mentioned before --- well, it's not my 'entire' secret. My Mortal Kombat secret is my romance-muse --- yes, folks, I'm in 'love' with a Mortal Kombat character or 'avatar' --- the blade-fan wielding warrior-princess Kitana, a fierce but beautiful and honorable if relentless woman of daring...and graphic acrobatic blade-fan throwing prowess. She's beautiful, agile, fashionable, cool, and self-composed. She's my secret. I tell myself, "The reason I can't get married...is because I'm in love with Kitana (Mortal Kombat)."

So, I had this dream-sleep 'adventure' straight out of the Inferno the other night in my New England estate. I dreamt I was going through the 'levels' or 'circles' of Purgatory and Hell or the Inferno itself. I was being 'tested' in my faith through each level/circle. I was interrogated about my 'commitment' (spiritually/physically/emotionally/philosophically) to Kitana (Mortal Kombat). I was tested by levels in which the tempting Vice-inquisitor asked me things like, "Doesn't any of your past-loves/romances/girlfriends experience(s) remind you of Kitana?" I had to answer, "Well, sort of, yeah well, there's a couple, but no, not really --- I mean, Kitana is like Athena to me or Aphrodite --- my 'guidance' for consciousness/sentiment!" I could tell this wouldn't be simple. In the deeper levels, I was asked more complex things like, "Don't you fear you'll offend your newer girlfriends/dates if you disclosed this 'deep secret' about your 'obsession' with Kitana (Mortal Kombat?" Once-again, I'd offer a simply calmed-down temperate reply like, "Well, no, not really, since, well, I don't really form marriage-relationships but more like date-night moonlight dances of courtly love or knightly-love...not really immortal love." I realized then that the 'test' the Inferno had in-store for me was regarding the Freudian imagery of endless ambiguity --- Can a video-game 'nut' like me, an artist-by-day and a cyber-geek by private, find a 'way' through the Freudian 'diorama' of consciousness-humility?

What I have to conclude is that Kitana (Mortal Kombat) is really about my 'endless' need for private-love. She's real to me, and maybe she's 'too' real to me. I mean, what if I do meet a woman who's like, well, 'identical' to Kitana? Would that change my sense of passion or commitment? I doubt it. What I do know/understand is that Kitana (Mortal Kombat) offers an offbeat cyber-artist/writer like me, Amlan Satan, a completely 'independent sense' of wrought beauty-magic...or distances! That's my secret --- it's one of total daylight.

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"Money is everything" (Ecclesiastes)