An Apology to my Heart

Horrendous skies fill my mind,

There is no companionship for me.

So I'll move ahead, with you behind,

But the pain remains unsubtly.

Broken nails, I walk upon,

Left behind dreams, I ponder on--

Your sympathy, it's long gone,

And I wonder where my love belongs.

Within a forest, my heart is lost,

And through the trails, it goes.

These rejections from which it exhausts,

Tells a tale of woes.

This little heart, wandering about,

Crying its sorrowful plea.

Pouring its feelings (which were devout),

And never to feel the glee.

My poor red friend, I have failed you--

By never giving you the chance;

Despite your color, you've been only blue,

Now you're falling to a trance.

I can never repay you, for what I've done.

Deprived you of your one true cause.

I refrain from love, because it isn't fun--

Now I ask: at what cost?

The aching in my chest has begun, 

And aspirin is of no relief--

The once felt beat,

Has went away,

It has stopped,

And I have lost.

Although you may beat no more,

I still consider you a friend--

You were there, despite the abuse...

I only hope you forgive me.

My awkward tale of a heart,

That never felt real love,

And the irony is--

It is only I to blame, for the pain he endured.