Sorry

just how i feel when i'm sorry

Sorry

I’m sorry that I’m useless

I’m sorry I’m drunk

I’m sorry I can’t be what you thought

I’m sorry my life was a lie

And I’m sorry I couldn’t bear to be alive.

I just wish for once I could stop

That I could finally be what you thought

Now I see that I’m stuck in this lie

Never to escape the hell inside.

If I could control it

If I could stop it

You know I would rise above it

But I’m stuck in this lie of a life

Stuck in this never ending charade.

I’m sorry I couldn’t keep it in

Sorry I ever told you about it.

I understand now this isn’t what you want

I understand that you don’t even care.

But the words won’t stop

And the tears won’t stop

And I just wish my life would stop.

But now I understand

Now I get it

I’m not meant to feel your love

Not meant to see this light

So I return to my dark

Return to the shadows that do not judge

Return to the shadows that don’t expect much

And now I see my fate

 Now I see where I belong

I belong in this dead night

This empty soulless dark

For once I’m not sorry when I die

For once I feel no burden

All I feel is the refreshing peace

Of not being sorry for once in my life.