Lost Myself

What have I become?
Tell me please
I've lost myself in the rain
I don't know who I am anymore
I'm a monster
I've changed
I know I'm not the same
Please help me
I'm losing control
All I have left is my pain & sorrow

I lay down in the road
While the rain pours down
I take a deep breath, taking in the truth.
I'm a monster
There's no changing me
I have to leave before my family grieves
I have realized I'm danger.
I'm a painter
I'll paint your blood every where
Is that normal?
I'm an awful person
What will my family think?
I must hurry and leave.
I'll roam into the darkness until the sun rises.