The phase continues.

My struggle between religion, and my lifestyle. Everyone told me it was just a phase, the phase continues.

When I was a younger soul I always did as I was told.
I feared defiance and the scold that would  follow.
On my knees before my bed I closed my eyes and
words bled from my lips requesting forgiveness.
As years passed on and souls ascended into the
abyss they swore lied beyond the stars that
Looked like shards to a puzzle destroyed,
I pondered, and wondered, and questioned my faith.

Wrinkled faces and souls much older than my own
told me that my destiny I did not own, but the father
Who lived in the abyss above the stars that looked like shards
created a plan before I was born. A path was drawn
before my first dawn and I had to follow. On my knee’s
before my bed I could not find the words to speak.
Inside I had been tainted by lies that haunted me.
I no longer felt a divine connection; just rejection.

I knew from a young age that I was very strange,
they told me it was just a phase but I knew better.
Father would be disappointed if he knew the
things I wanted to do. I feared myself and
my damnation if I decided to follow through
and do as my heart told me too. A demon
with angelic eyes stared with me into the sky,
we searched together for stars shooting by.

Reviews

[mattavelli]

Hello, Johnny! :)
You used some lovely phrasing here, and you’ve expressed quite a conflict. I don’t understand most religions, or how people can claim someone else’s idea as their own faith. Maybe it’s just a phase. Thanks for sharing.

[paparapapa]

Wow. It must have been hard for you, growing up I mean. But I seriously think that you should just accept who you are. I have also been asking myself what will the deal be between being who you are and the religion, and I guess I found the answer to that, thanks to my parents. Haha. Anyway, you inspired me to write a blog post about this subject matter. Great poem by the way. Really strong and powerful. Keep on shining! ;)

[Lily Mae]

:) Embrace the beautiful soul you are and let others live in the mud of judgement... Shine in love and light...xx