Darkness encompasses my soulA Poem by AlexandraDarkness encompasses my soul. Squeezing out the last rays of
light. Savagely destroying any hope my heart had dared to believe. I close my
eyes in defeat. I can feel my body breaking. My hands tremble, my breaths
shallow. Images flash across my mind, awakening old demons. I panic yet and
oddly calm, I know the pain but it still scares me. I have fallen, I have been
broken apart. I know I tried, I fought valiantly but it was not enough. My
darkness has overcome me, suffocating my being. When I open my eyes, they no
longer shine within my blue eyes, they are etched with black. No longer
recognizable to those who know and love me. I smile, but darkness creeps along
the edges, a sinister look. No one can see my darkness yet it hovers over my
skin, constantly in touch with me. I appear normal, happy. But darkness layers my skin and soul. Someone
touches me and it soaks into my skin. Making me crawl in my own skin. The
slightest critic opens the gate for the darkness to seep into my mind. It
attaches onto the words and snakes up to my mind, twisting and construing the
thoughts. Manifesting itself deeper in my mind. My darkness is always with me,
I have fallen. My darkness comforts me with pain, has taught me to accept it to
seek it out for mine and others protection. My darkness is my constant
companion, it is my life line. It is all that I have left, I cannot reject it
for then I will be nothing. My darkness is my savior as much as my demise. I am
in a deadly compromise, I cannot release my darkness without losing myself.
There is no escape from my own hell and pain. I have failed and fallen. © 2016 Alexandra |
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