The Boy I Thought I Knew

This is my first time publishing about this. It hurt to write, but it is a part of my life.

I didn't know what was going on

It couldn't have been past dawn

When my foggy brain slowly awoke

And I felt a little poke

Face down on my bed

I remember what he said

"Can I just have a drink with you?

I won't even stay past two"

We'd known each other since we were little

So I didn't think anything of it

Even when he kept telling me to drink

Until I couldn't remember to think

As I laid frozen in fear

And felt his body come near

My parents words, while few

echoed, "It will be someone you knew"

I didn't want it to be true

By then, I already knew

I wish I had the courage

But he wasn't getting discouraged

I stirred enough to get him to leave

And finally I felt I could breathe

Then it hit me, what he had done

And all I wanted to do was run

He said he didn't remember last night

I said I didn't either, I didn't have the might

Exposed, alone and afraid he left me

And from the memories I can't be free

He tore a part of my innocence away

And for that he can never repay

I will never be the same

Every time I hear his name

It still haunts me, I still break down

But here is what I've found

I have a voice, I can stand up and fight

I can pick myself up, and I can and will bite

Reviews

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

I’m so sorry this happened to you
It takes great courage to write about rape abuse loss of innocence but the minute you do I believe it helps you grow stronger from the act that happened
I’ve had such experiences in my life as a young To late teen well I have not written of them yet and I’m 61 so commend you on this
Keep writing
Release your thoughts
Anything and everything
By the way your poem was very well written even though the subject of it was painful for you you did a good job of it
Take a breath in and out you are a survivor a warrior and welcome to the cafe you will find lots of friends here I’m sure x

[Amber Leis]

Thank you some much, I can already feel the love and support here

[Julie McCarthy (juliespenhere)]

Yes we can write about all and sundry here I feel no judgement in this nice place

[Confidopen]

You were really deep, I love it.

[Amber Leis]

Thank you, it is comforting to write about this and be supported

[Confidopen]

Yeah, you are right dear, more ink to your pen.

[John the Baptist]

"It will be someone you knew>" It's not always a faceless stranger. A grim tale, this one. I hope you can publish it.

[Amber Leis]

I appreciate you saying that. This poem was hard for me to put out, but I hope it can bring some comfort to the readers.