Crush crush crush

The thoughts before telling someone something you know they don't want to hear. It might be a break up, or a death. Its on your mind constantly.

Think think think.

Beat beat beat.

Breathe breathe breathe

Crush Crush Crush.

Trying to find a way

To beat around the bush.

 

My mind won't stop thinking

The pain won't stop coming

Yet all I can do

Is think think think.

 

My heart won't stop beating

Though its not for you

Yet it continues to beat

And all I hear

Is beat beat beat.

 

My lungs won't stop breathing

Even when my tears fill them up

They just continue to fill

With air turned sour

And all I feel

Is breathe breathe breathe

 

My mind keeps thinking

My heart keeps beating

My lungs keep breathing

And sometimes I want

To stop them all

 

Because everytime I think

Every time I beat

Every time I breathe

I'm crushing myself

one more time.

 

The sound that echos

riding around the swirls of wind

is the one I hate

the one that hurts the most

Crush crush crush.

 

These sounds are amplified

the pain so fierce

yet you dont feel or hear

a single thing.

 

And though I wish

no harm to fall

I wish you could see

the sights I see

And hear

the sounds I hear

And feel

the pain I feel

And maybe, just maybe

you would end this for me.

 

But you are oblivious

Blinded by the false light

Deafened by the false birdsong

Covered by the false warmth

 

So I will do the hurting

The hunting

The action that kills all

Because I cannot wait

for you to do it

When you are sheltered

By the false things

 

For you

The coping will be

the worst thing

 

For me

The action is

that which I dread

 

Until then

the sounds of which

you're oblivious to

will continue on

until I find the courage

or even the hatred

to silence them

and begin yours.

Author's Note

I think a lot of people can relate to this. I could never find a song or poem or anything that really described how it feels to have to tell someone who's done nothing wrong some bad news. So I wrote my own prose.

Reviews

[Katie Foutz Voss]

Sure, this is a relatable topic. Everyone has felt this way. But I feel you dragged it out a bit long, and for something lacking any sort of flow it would have been much smoother if you shortened it. The first stanza all by itself had some power to it, but the longer you push the subject the less power your message has.

[r]

wow.. i totally can relate to this,. and i must say, you have a catchy title! the only reason i read it is because of the paramore song "crush crush crush" bravo