spitting away what's too hard to swallow

spitting away what's too hard to swallow

A Chapter by Ana Papaya
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certain things
like watermelon seeds
are spit away
unwanted
like a stain
a blemish upon something otherwise sweet

this is what love means to me
spitting away what's too hard to swallow

always an effort
to dance around those words
              that sweep across my mouth

the I love you's planted
whilst planting seeds
now the only thing growing in my heart
is an ache I feel squeeze
      with every rock of my chair
on a shaded porch in summer

feeling the heat of those words
dancing around my tongue
      like a song
        unsung
wanting to be spit out

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Gee
Once something in my mouth I never spit it out, guess, and this is a wee bit non pc, I'd be a gay man's dream !
I spent a few years living alone, at times very lonely as I was strapped for cash, so my life for a while was work then solitude, and I didn't enjoy my own company much. Might have been a wee bit different if I was writing back then. Thing is we become selfish, I think, and we then find it difficult when our "routine" disrupted by having to fit another into it. Tis the same with our emotions, feelings, especially if still smarting from being let down by another.
I tell only my daughter and wife that I love them, constantly, each time I leave their company to venture out, before bed etc, etc.
This is so apparent that one of my wife's very good friends had made a point of kissing my cheek and telling me she loves me, in front of my wife, just to get me telling her I love her back, strange woman.
Anyway, if you want to practice " I love you" feel free to shower me :)))
Sorry for waffling.
Good morning "doll face"....... :)))))


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Gee

11 Months Ago

Lol, you never know :)
Ana Papaya

11 Months Ago

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HOLY MOLY! This is THE MOST original & delicious writing I've read from you, & ALL your stuff is original & delicious! That title already sprouting a dozen seeds of possibilities, so my head was humming before I even started. Then your storyline goes in such fresh unexpected directions, nothing like anything that had crossed my mind when I first read your title. I so did not expect this to be a love poem. But it's so far beyond what most love poems offer, I hate to even call it that. This is writing to die for! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 9 Months Ago


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Ana Papaya

9 Months Ago

Well now you've got me just beaming, Margie.
Thank you. :)
I love where you took me with this. I'm someone who doesnt like to wait around to the stage where it gets unpleasant. Everything has its good and bad time. I guess the downside is inevitable. So spitting it out is a good option, even if i have to spit a tooth and some blood along with it.

Posted 10 Months Ago


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Ana Papaya

10 Months Ago

Thank you for relating! :)
AJNJ

10 Months Ago

You're most welcome :)
This one overflows with frustration and loneliness. The speaker has apparently been unlucky in love. and though desiring it does not know what to do. What we are hearing is indeed like a "song unsung." I don't hear despair, though, which is a good sign. Stand open and receptive and ready to be all right with what happens. Like attracts like.

Posted 10 Months Ago


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Ana Papaya

10 Months Ago

Hi John, thanks for popping in to read and leaving a thoughtful comment. :)
You so often say what many think, Ana Papaya. Here your wording not only has deep feelings and sincerity, they are as truthful as can be. To each his or her own when it comes to spitting out truth. Different ways, different reasons, different hurt. Your words stay behind when they disappear from sight.. you know that, don't you. '.. now the only thing g rowing in my heart .. is an ache I feel squeeze .. with -'

Posted 10 Months Ago


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Ana Papaya

10 Months Ago

I think you 'get' me. :)
Thanks much, em!
terrific metaphor says i! to spit or swallow ... that is the question ;) truth be told ... we do have the instant that allows the choice ... no matter how intense that moment is ... swallowing one's just anger to preserve the dignity of a relationship ... or better spit ... and be honest for one's own self health and so the relationship as well ... your title is quite the hook .. the sexual spark of it stimulates the read indeed... i can see your character ... stewing ... i feel for her .. she's alone now on the porch ... from the Bible... Proverbs 18:"Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits." ...actually the Bible has quite a bit to say on the subject ... but repression ...swallowing seeds .. .................well ... me Ma use to say watermelons will grow in the stomach if I did that ... and of course the mighty Shrek's advise "Better out than in" is also sound wisdom .. your poem captured me Ana! I read it several times and then again .. there is the portrait of a complex human being ... rocking on that shaded porch ... in cold empty solitude ... yet there is hope somehow ... its a cliff hanger! i want to know what happens next ;) love the form ..its my cup of tea for sure! well done! thanks for sharing ... its been a while eh!?
E.

Posted 11 Months Ago


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Ana Papaya

10 Months Ago

Shrek always had some clever things to say. :)
Thanks kindly for your generous comment here!
dear Ana... Watermelon 🍉 can be the sweetest ever with seeds that annoy and like a Buoy in a restless Sea can be Cast away upon the shore of no return... gently, Pat

Posted 11 Months Ago


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Ana Papaya

10 Months Ago

So true Pat. Thanks a bunch!
I think it is much less complicated to spit watermelon seeds than to spit the words I love you.
After munching on watermelon we can wipe away the sweet juice...
but after saying I love you, we can't wipe away the sticky solvent that ends up
in our eye.
if only we could see more clearly beforehand.

Posted 11 Months Ago


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Ana Papaya

10 Months Ago

Thanks Jacob, for sharing your thoughts and wisdom.
Well, hello my dear old friend. It has been a very long time since I stepped into this virtual room, it feels very nostalgic, and of course with your gripping poem it is good to be back while it lasts. Don't let the spikes of love sting your tongue, if you swallow it, at least keep the good minerals and let the rest digest the unneeded.

Posted 11 Months Ago


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Ana Papaya

10 Months Ago

Hey you, great to see you. :)
Thanks much for offering some kind words here.
You, apparently, don't believe in romantic love--not in any real sense.
Hollywood hype; wishful thinking; self-delusion.
If so, I agree.
Excellent poem.


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Ana Papaya

11 Months Ago

I don't believe in the HollywoodDisney version but I believe in lasting connections that evolve into.. read more
another very readable offering, one of many, I'd just suggest you take a bit of care about where you were going to do your spitting what with social and hygienic issues often at play
Just saying
Hope you're not too hot

Posted 11 Months Ago


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Ana Papaya

11 Months Ago

I'm plenty distanced from my neighbours fortunately so I can spit to my heart's content. :)
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Dave Brown

10 Months Ago

difficult to criticize the weather
perfect growing year with both rain and sun
Much mi.. read more

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