"A Series Of Thoughts - Rain Is A State Of Mind..." Poem

"What is and isn't"

"A Series Of Thoughts..."  continues on and on.  Minds are like that, flowing and meandering whimsically and then raging as the WORLD just FLOODS in - then out.  Its sunny and the wind is whispering - clouds shimmering... and the mind is crying to come out and play.

Rain is a state of mind... hmmm.  Seems we often think in terms that seperate and hide us from view. 

"Rain Is A State Of Mind..."

Rain is a state of mind -
mine, yours, anyone's,
everyone's.
We carry our selves
everywhere -
and try so hard to live within
the 'borders' of
our allusions and illusions.

But the 'borders' have changed -
they, like we, are so very, very shattered!

The world is NOT a little place; but, no PLACE is suddenly more than a heartbleat away.  Within your LIFE - every WHERE is within your sight - not within an instant physical touch... but within your sight, within your hearing,
within your - reach.

You can see and hear
and GOD - be touched, without being - touched.
You can be in your sanctum -
the one place that has FOREVER been yours - alone ~
- your 'closet', castle keep, bed... your PLACE.
Even -
A kitchen table at 3AM after all your 'tears'
  have finally stopped falling or maybe you just
  woke and need to cry, want to be anything and anywhere
  but right here and right now
  anditsallclosingintightandnowhereelsetobe
AND SUDDENLY
you HAVE some one else that is
RIGHT
WHERE
you are...

...hello...

I think its hardest realizing
we were settled for...
even if WE settled ourselves -
no one really wants to believe
it happened TO them.

     How long do YOU wait
     to love before you don't wait anymore?

"Love WILL come" -
"...it will grow" -
I OR YOU
can and "WILL learn to love"
me or you... eventually,
if given the time...
remember hearing that and those?

There is compassion,
desire, want, caring, LUST,
a whole society promulgated,
studied-and-approved LIST
-  of ways to be WITH others.
And we carry the list into our lives
as the frame for how to survive.

--- and then you FEEL... something ---

And what about when you ARE in-love
- who self-sacrifices themselves
after knowing all their lives
ALL
their
lives -
that there is no such thing as storybook Love!!
There is Lust and heat.
There is understanding.
There isn't 'completeness' or
another "half" awaiting discovery...
'til rather suddenly their
- IS.

The shock of being in-love
and knowing it -
with someone who 'settled'
AND was in turn 'settled-for'...

Being the "other"
- man or woman
or is it always to be
- just another man or woman?
There IS a lot of Rain
inside
and behind-so-many-eyes.

Life can be such melancholy mysts.

Chris

Author's Note

A member of- Saturday - "Once Upon A Time..."
The THEIR in "'til rather suddenly their - IS." is MEANT for being POSSESSIVE as in Their other "half", Their "Completeness" - just so ya know

Reviews

[roarke]

the within and without.... working it through the changes, a life's pursuit, quietly or loud, passive or aggressive. Even feeling pain is better than feeling numb. Pain is motivating, stimulating, inspiring. Numbness is deadened, frozen, unchanging sameness.
We have to understand life, the way it is shown to us, and understand we won't always like it or agree with it, hardly agree with it.
This write also makes me think about the path, the journey, not the destination. The living has no prescribed destination, there is no definitive definition of completed-ness.... that's the spark, the essence of life, it's pure energy. Powerful stuff Chris, must have been one hellava cup of java.

[lost girl]

I think its hardest realizing
we were settled for...
even if WE settled ourselves -
no one really wants to believe
it happened TO them.

this part. this part is the part...it opens eyes...it tells no lies......

[Chris]

Some truths are harder to face than others... when you lay awake at 1 A,M.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

this has a lot to do with love, and relationships...but for me it has to do with the love of the idealism we felt in the 60's...and how those last drops fell...and the illusions dried up...we thought we could change things...but instead we sit at our breakfast tables reading the paper and seeing just how short we came to achieving our goals...and how there is still so much rain falling inside....

i liked the way CCR had used rain in their songs as trouble...but i also think it refers to movement...

now it seems the drops stay in place...the movement only downward...and to me, that is trouble.

this poem really sent me on a journey...and will probably inspire me to write some things again about those idealistic days.

[Chris]

Interesting seeing you here... am I worth discovering? I wonder what students will think - as they re-invent their perceptions of their own nows ...without OUR experience of the past nows to match against.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

so true...so true, i wonder the same.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

and you are definitely worth discovering.

[Chris]

You really ought to at least listen to Underhills Radio show... some real people stop by...

[Chris]

Chuckling here...then bring your students by... and talk about ideas... and method. What is motivation and what is perception.

[Kat Collins]

Interestingly ironic as I read this that "Marry Me" by Train begins playing on my radio. "And marry me, today and everyday, marry me, if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe..."

[Crowley]

A tour de force of thoughts for sure. You could write six books from the ideas prsented here, but I don't think the books would be as interesting to read or to the point like this is. There is always this place just above a person, to the left and up high, never thought reachable by societies dictum, but every once in a while you see it in your peripheral vision, and once you see it and grab it its never peripheral again.....If we try hard enough, maybe we could fly.

[masqued_muse]

You know the human heart so well, my friend...and in the knowing, you show us....yours. You...are one of my blessings....that I keep....inside. Love this...your words are like medicine..
masqued^^

[sharonlee]

Peace Love & Friendship

[joshua deathdealer]

Rain is a state of mind...wow this is spectacular. I like the way it was written. Excellent work. I really enjoyed this read.

[asdarkeyesclose]

'A kitchen table at 3AM after all your 'tears'
have finally stopped falling'

i liked that hello was so small because I would have put it in capitals. Didn't quite agree with you on love though. I like that you can put your emotions into words most people just feel things without ever finding those words. Stunning!

[sharonlee]

...hello... the sighs tremble with this one....

Shar

[Emily B]

a paint a picture on the page of someone I could know . . .