Blog post- Creative Narrative Essay

I am a volunteer at a blogging site. I have started my first blog but it is unfinished which is why it ends abruptly. I would greatly appreciate any advice on what I have so far. Thank you!

Today I start college and to say I'm nervous would be quite the understatement. 

And it’s not because I’m underprepared. Quite the opposite actually. In fact, a planner separated by due dates, classes, and weekly reminders sits neatly on my desk as I write this. So… my fear of college doesn’t actually stem from the things I can easily prepare for via color-coded tabs and to-do lists. No. Instead, my fear stems from the things I can’t prepare for. The things that none of us can prepare for. Things like change. 

 Change

 (Verb) My Definition�" 

1. Uncharted territory that may leave one forced to face new fears, obstacles, and circumstances. 2. A circumstance out of one's control- ie). Top three of my biggest fears right under flying airplanes, tied with enclosed spaces

 

I've always been resistant to change. Even the word, change, sends me tumbling into a downward spiral that leaves me questioning every what if scenario. 

What if I fail all my classes no matter how hard I study?

What if I’m majoring in the wrong major?

What if I don’t get accepted for that job I applied for last week?

Or worse. What if I get the job and I hate it but I'm stuck there through obligation?

And the list goes on and on…

Because as we all know, all new environments come with new circumstances to face (fears included). My mom says that I should “embrace change”. That it's necessary in order to grow up, to be successful, to be happy. And I know all this to be true. I mean, it's common knowledge, right? That if you want to experience the world differently you have to be different. But despite this universal truth, I’m still resistant to that bone-chilling six-letter word. I’m still afraid to be different even if I want the world around me to be. 

So, I sit here at my desk staring at my wall as if eventually it will talk back providing me with the perfect solution to all my questions. Spoiler alert- it doesn’t. Instead, I’m left to ponder on my own. Thoughts swarm my head, buzzing like incessant bees, the loudest most predominant one being: how can I get over this self-inflicted hurdle? Well, I know for a fact that it’s not just me who has a fear of change. I also know that plenty of successful and happy people have or have had this fear. So, if they can live blissfully contempt in the unexpected so can I. Right?

Author's Note

I am a volunteer at a blogging site. I have started my first blog but it is unfinished which is why it ends abruptly. I would greatly appreciate any advice on what I have so far. Thank you!