Rumbling rain

Something about not being able to focus, using alcohol to try to fix that, how alcohol isn't the answer, etc.

Listening to the gentle rumble of the rain

While you have a gentle rumble of your own

A deep inner conflict of opposing voices

None of which you can focus on 

As if your thought process is forever a haze 

Nothing ever seems clear 

Nothing can ever hold your attention 

You do not know what to do

Seeking clairvoyance

You try to make sense of what is happening 

Thorough controlled substances 

In which you have lost control of 

They may ease your mind 

Just keep in mind 

That every time in a substance you partake 

You take one step farther away

From finding the true answer