My Life

I haven't seen life as much as it seems by the topic i've chosen ...

i am 22 , done with my b.tech , and i can proudly say that i don't have a job and i am dying to get one...

and trust me I have never worked so hard for any damn thing in this world...

i m a small town girl ...i actually moved out of my small town and my sweet and simple life after 12th...

life changed but i m glad it wasn't as fast as i thought it would be, it was not very different from my town...

all i experienced during those 4 yrs were people and me...got to know myself a little better...

trust me hostel is a place where u see the variety in people...

life was good , i was good...

i thought a new place would completely change me ...that's what I thought of college life...

people...

I have made some great friends and some non existent people ... who have been exiled from my universe...

before knowing them, all bad i knew were relatives...relatives were the most insensitive people who should have been 

named enemies...

and why do they have to play games with their own family????

have they lost their humanities...what hearts do they have to do things like that...

well too much on them ...they aren't that bad...

I have heard some people saying that "nobody is bad or evil, its just the circumstances"

and from some I have heard " some people r mean by default, they r no more humans"

at one point of time i was the one saying the 2nd line...

and some diplomats said" its all about your priorities , there is nothing bad in being mean to a person 

who doesn't mean anything to you...

i was not used to all the s**t that actually happen between people in this world...

those game people play or whatever u call it...

i was like... if i don't like u or i m not in good terms with u...i wont even look at u...until and unless u came in for help...

that is the time i do whatever i could do to help no matter i like you or not...

yup i kinda have this "Mother Teresa" in me.

and i m totally proud of it...

and neither do i expect anything from these people...

all i was hurt by hearing things about me in spite of being good...

ohk i overcame this as well... 

u can have your own opinions about me and will still help you when you need ...maybe that's how they will realize ...

i am a little bad at saying no..

i have cried a lot of tears for people who didn't matter at all...but i m done with it...

all i am bad right now is at expecting things from the people i love and if my expectation are not met i am really hurt...

and so is my temper...and so that i might not hurt u by my words i get into my shell...because wen i m hurt i am a really bad person ...

people say don't expect anything from anyone...

i guess that's the key to a good and happy life...

but you not whats the problem if i want this world to become a better place to live in...

everyone is so busy being themselves nobody pays a damn if a small gesture will cost them nothing but

 can be great help for others...

 its not that people are bad or the time or situation makes u bad...

 its what you are made of...what is the meaning of life to you...

 some define a perfect life as being happy and successful with our loved ones...

 to me life is same as above but to be added i believe y not help people y not bring a smile to their lives if it wont cost

 wont make a difference to your life...

 well if we opened our hearts a little more maybe a lot of trouble would be saved...

 for once try and see the smile your kind gesture brings to a persons life...maybe then you will feel what it is like ...

 yes i am an emotional fool no matter i mean nothing to you if you need me I will be there that's me and that's what gives me "khushi"...

 i might be sounding like god...:p

 but i am not a great human...i have problems too ...i act weird at times...but that's only wen my goodness meets its limit...

 every time I am hurt i cry and decide i wont do a thing for those heartless people...

 but that's the way i am...

 there has been a lot of times wen i have been disappointed with people ... 

 but ill keep doing things till either i am forced to become mean or my thinking makes a difference...

Reviews

[Philip Muls]

I hear a lot of pain in your writing. A lot of life lived for being only 22. It seems to overwhelm you. But it will make you stronger if you let it be.

Well done.
Can you read mine please.