Falling Apart

Falling Apart

Somewhere it floats in the back of my mind,

So hard to push forward, always on rewind,

The fantasy that's never coming true

So many reasons why, I'll never be with you.

 

Months have faded and I haven't seen your face,

Feelings I can't let go of and can't seem to trace,

From the beginning, I told myself I wouldn't fall,

I had nothing to hold onto, Now I can't even crawl,

 

I'd be a liar if I said I'd had no clue,

and if I didn't realize I'd always be number two

tried to pull it together,Still I keep falling apart,

You still got away holding my heart;

 

You're everything I said I'd run from,

But now I'd give anything to run to you,

I have everything you seemed to want,

But I still somehow wouldn't do

 

I try to speak, and I choke

sometimes its hard to breathe,

all you've put me through, I can't admit,

you're everything I need.