Numb

This is more of a journal entry then a story but I thought it was good

Have you ever wanted to cry but you are so numb

That no tears will come out.

So you just curl up in a ball

And stare blanly at a wall.

Feeling your heart break into a million little pieces.

And in that moment...

Nothing anyone says means anything...

Cuz in that moment.

You 

Do

Not

Exist.

And in that moment you feel as if

Everything is closing in on you.

Everything and everyone you ever loved,

 Have become meaningless,

Cuz this darkness...

This immense shadow of dispare,

Just engulfs you like a raging forest fire.

And that's all you can focus on.

The rest of the world is gone. 

This shadow brings with it

A ragging war inside your head.

A war that will never be won.

It is a war between your sanity

And the darkness of insanity.

And some days if feels like

The darkness is winning.

The utter lonelyness.

It is the feeling of being surrounded by people

Yet you still feel completely alone.

It is a lonlylonel that rocks you

To your very core of existence.

And the pain...

The constant feeling

Having a knife in your heart.

It is a pain no band-aid can heal.

It is a pain of long past

Wounds that never healed

The pain that others have caused.

The wounds break open...

Everytime you are reminded

Of the painful incounters.

The mental damage caused by all

Of this pain and darkness

Is enough to drive anyone 

Over the edge

Only the strong can endure

The war ragging.

And make it out better 

Then they were before.

Author's Note

Feel free to leave comments and feedback