Overwhelmed

Just need to get this off my chest right now. I had the worst past couple of days ever! I'm just too overwhelmed with everything right at this time. Can't wait for this week to come to an end already.

Exhausted and tired
Used up and overly exasperated
Stressed out and lacking sleep
I'm feeling completely faded.

Faded out and worn out
Craving for some rest
Craving for peace
Feeling way too stressed.

I've only been back to the world of "normal"
For 3 weeks since my leave
For crying out loud! I'm putting on a front!
Just so people don't see me grieve.

In reality I'm not mentally there
Not yet back to my old self
I'm doing the best that I can
To fix myself.

I just buried my dad
Man give me a break!
All this work and family crap
Are just too much for me to take.

I'm not asking for another leave
I just need time and space
Because what y'all are seeing on the outside
Is nothing but a mask of a happy face.

I turn to writing my heart out
Because the paper is the only thing that seems to understand
That inside I am screaming
My head is just too crammed.

I'm trying to move forward with my life
I'm just trying to get past this year
Trying to take each day at a time
But sometimes I wish I could just...disappear.

At work I'm being ripped apart
And asked a million questions
Then I have to meed demands
And face unwanted tensions.

All of this right now
Is just too much for me to take
I'M A HUMAN BEING! NOT A ROBOT!
Give me time to adjust back to normalcy for goodness sake!

Reviews

[Veronique]

Darlin' when I lost my daddy as well as my mama it was only a year apart when it happened and I was also working full time and marriage was well not so good at the time either and stress was major issue for me and problems were sooo bad at the time .Just kept piling up...didn't know if I could take it but you hang in there hon'.Don't let anyone rush you ...you have to get through your grieving .I didn't get to as I should.Sending you lots of warm hugs today for this heartfelt write and my condolances as well.You keep writing all your feelings down no matter what!!

[Aries1984]

Thank you for the review. That is what I have been doing a lot lately. Things are calming down a bit since I wrote this poem.

[pikachulover]

Well-expressed! I felt like this a many times, seems really very irking. Anyways, you explained it well in the form of poetry. Keep going and thanks for sharing!

[Aries1984]

Thank you for the review! Yeah sometimes when you feel that you can't vent to anyone else, not even members of your own family, picking up the pen and paper is the way to release tension.

[pikachulover]

Yeah, agreed.