Tainted Love

I find my status quite fretful

to be subject to such a fickle thing

How could I have been so reckless

I have indeed made myself cheapened 

Such trickery could have been obvious

And it was seen yet gleefully ignored

Illusions clouded my mind in haste

I indulged in this madness with ties to moral values

Values which were masked with ease

I see now, purity can be pretentious

Thus suffering is then permitted

I have wounded my heart enough to apprehend such insanity

No more shall I continue in these squabbles 

I have managed to look beyond this walls of delusion

The seasons has changed and the fog has cleared

I have permitted myself to love but I am faced with agonizing confusion

The lessons it grants are as herculean as life

I should have been mindful of this

For I was warned of its dynamic nature

Yet I lunged for it like a desperate fool

I got a little taste and obsession took it's course

Then I sought it by every means 

Definitely such actions comes with its consequence

It has taken a while to regain focus

Love itself cannot be perfectly defined

Every being holds differing understanding of the term

I find it is possible to hold back and not be subject to these intricacies 

However, I do not want to

I believe grasping this concept is more beneficial 

unraveling this mystery is a gradual process

Dashing into it would only yield torment

Therefore slowly steadily I shall discern

Author's Note

what exactly is love

Reviews

[Alisa Js]

hmmmm... all that professes to be love isn't always that which it states. I have learned that behavior speaks volumes ..

Well done, you.

Alisa

[Quill]

indeed, indeed, i agree