Trust

trying to atone for some recent mis interpretations that I had

Looking back on things in our past wishing to god I could take it all back

Way back then,when I lost my sight and soon after with every f*****g night

I would make these accusations that just f*****g hurt you...and worst of all

I forgot what I meant to you...with every time I was pulling this crap

I stood there and watched....as you were broke with every attack

When I tried to say that things are gonna change 

Said it so often not knowing....I caused your pain

In fact love I might just make this a song

If nothing else to tell you.....you were right all along

And baby I can see now what you were trying to tell 

Just wish that I saw then before I created this hell

After all I've done its a blessing you want to be with me

Things are finally the way they were supposed to be

The thing is love I already know what your gonna say

"Baby you treated me great with every passing day"

I wont lie to you baby I know thats wrong 

I will never know how you stayed so strong

Breaking promises causing hurt with every sentence

Even making an a*s of myself in front of our friends

Enemies that have become friends if that don't prove

With every passing action how much I trust you

I can't fix what is done only try to stop it from hurting

Even as I write this I can't stop the tears from rolling 

"It will take time..." if thats what your told

No problem love...they all soon will know

Talk is cheap to them even I know this

Soon they will see...we make each other's bliss

They will all know love that I did change

But....I wont lie I tried to smoke away the pain

After you had left I only sat here and pondered

While getting fucked up as I let my mind wander

Knowing I hurt you for the last time.....you grew stronger

The weed was not working I could not take it much longer

Drink after drink ended up only helping this pain 

It was then I knew I was starting to go insane

Thoughts occurring that you were never going to be mine

Nothing could take them away not even the jar of shine

Turning into an addict but my drugs were not working anymore

Almost turned back down that dark road I was on before

First deciding that before I let it get that far 

I was going to think about things....long and hard

Before I went back to it I opened my eyes and saw

That what I did broke everyone of my laws

That part kills me knowing how I treated you

Trust me you more than deserve better too

I emotionally beat you and you had the strength to leave

I could never thank you enough....even if you didn't want us to be

Because babe after deep thought I know that you did it to save me

You saved us both by the simple fact of leaving

Hearing the words you say day by day 

The fact that you love me and never went astray

I feel the love and its better than before

I like it so much babe that I want more

Better feeling than anything the trees cant touch this

Just the simple fact knowing that I am your bliss

Again I won't lie I don't deserve this

For what I have done should be lucky to even hear this

"I love you Shelby" I hear it everyday

Again love hearing words like this I wont go astray.....

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Baby...this is so amazing...thank you so much, it means the world to me. I love you Shelby. :3