Still I Sit

Still me thinking..it's time to change my life...and the world

I sit here wondering how, over the years, I’ve changed

 

Angers all but consumed me, now its bottle rage

 

Lust has twisted my brain and clouded my perception

 

The mask and reality fused, my lifelong deception

 

The way I used to care is floating away from me. I’m seemingly

 

A man without emotions or cares, living dreamingly

 

Girls, drugs, alcohol, all whipped me. I was a slave to intoxications

 

My mind still shines through, but the dark still battles. Self-altercations

 

In my head. My head now a reel for the world’s movie

 

I am stuck at this…fork in the road, desperate for something to move me

 

My strength increases, and I must catalyze the reaction

 

Start a movement, a revolution, be the main attraction

 

But first and foremost I must establish reality

 

Life’s not a game, but we still suffer Fatalities

 

So to the world, I’ll hold my unorthodox shroud

 

I’ll be my own drummer to march to, hell a whole band. Loud

 

Louder than all the ignorant

 

Belligerent.

 

Degenerants.

 

We see

 

See how I’ve grown? I’ve concocted my own destiny.

 

After a year’s time, I’ve decided to be myself

 

But I still slip and tumble through delusions of grandeur and wealth

 

I still need to discover just who I am before I continue

 

I need something new, maybe a change in venue

 

Ready to matriculate and show the world my face

 

Get passed all this, shock them, and see if they keep pace

 

I’m prepared to change the world, every action a necessity

 

So I implore you to come, join, and bask in success with me…

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